#problematic husband

[vampxrebarbie]

[grelleswife]

I readily acknowledge that Sebastian Michaelis is garbage and would cheerfully kick him down a flight of stairs...but I also love that scoundrel and would take a bullet for him, and that is the (Earl Grey) tea.

[vampxrebarbie]

[boomhauer]

Two days late but I found one

Ily 💕

[boomhauer]

we’re best friends now 😭 thank you for taking the time to read my Billy fic!!

WOO! Any time! Just throw my name on there and I’ll be there!

[boomhauer]

No because I’d be ecstatic if he came back, have Joyce take him in and give him the family he needed all along 😭 we can dream. Anyway thanks for listening to my long winded Billy rant! 🥰

Anytime. I’m a sucker for the wounded boys. It tickles my Bob the Builder Syndrome.

[boomhauer]

He’s got so many classic signs and symptoms too, outbursts, reckless and dangerous behavior and after such prolonged exposure to that type of situation, his tendencies become part of his personality, he’ll need time and patience to heal, because Trauma does change you on a chemical level.

And instead, he’s murdered. His redemption lasts all for 45 seconds.

I know everyone is banking on Eddie being Kas, but if it turned out to be Billy Hargrove I will die. (I doubt it but a girl can dream)

[boomhauer]

I’m not going to lie, I’m usually on anon especially with how personal this is but, i also get where he’s coming from, from my dad vanishing and my mom remarrying and bringing us to the Midwest, i think it also bothers me so much because it was watching something so eerily similar to me and everyone hating it, knowing i got help and therapy and the amenities needed for someone with trauma to heal and he didn’t and people blame him for not magically fixing himself, like it bothers me to know on this personal level how hurt he is and how he’s just trying to control what he can, he’s in survival mode. (Totally ok if this is too much or triggering to post.)

It’s a deep hole of self loathing dig oneself out of, even when provided tools by a therapist (cause we don’t know how to cope outside of what we’ve learned as a trauma response, right?). Billy? Still living that day to day? With no earthly idea on how to fix it/change it/deal with it/move on from it? Yeah. He’s a total sack of rat’s ass for not just being better. 😒

There’s some books I’ve read on PTSD/trauma recommended to me and how trauma of any kind changes the brain chemically and psychologically. Billy’s constantly in fight or flight, and when there is no break from that constant state of fear/tension, it takes it’s toll and manifests in ugly ways.

He never had a chance. And when people judge him for that…