#procrastiwrite

[raybansandcoffee]

Happy Monday!

Okay, even I hate myself for trying to make that phrase my title. I’m the “I hate Mondays” kind of person. This is me ⬇⬇⬇

So I spent my morning with a friend of mine who lives in California in the San Francisco area that I haven’t seen in years. Came home and got the immediate needs of work done but I’ve lost my motivation due to being way too tired and having no desire to stare at my email and do work to get ahead for the week. So instead I’m going to write. It’s my preferred form of procrastination on this overcast, rainy Monday in Iowa. I always talk about procrastibaking so I’ve developed a new term: procrastiwrite. I will be procrastiwriting for a while to wrap up the next chapter because I am SO damn close to it being done. And hopefully, it will make this Monday less gloomy.

This is also me: ⬇⬇⬇

[okiepokey]

While writing an essay for a friend about ageing in different countries it became painfully obvious how much we take for granted in Western culture. I never really seriously considered how lucky I am to have so many choices AND chances while others less fortunate only have one route in life to follow which, most likely, would still be much harder than anything I would ever go through.

While I am slacking off and studying something that will make me go places in the future, others are out there earning money, and HAVE been earning an income since a young age just to get by. While I sit here thinking about what to wear tomorrow, others out there have been using the same thing consistently because it is the only thing available to them and they don't care as clothing is a constant in our lives and anything is better than nothing.

While I sit here torn between which girl I like, which girl I wish to show affection too and contemplate how I might successfully court her, others out there are happy with the lot they have drawn in life and find love much easier by making less judgements, returning home to a family to share burdens with. While WE sit here pondering how we can change our body image, deliberating how to look better, others out there are more than happy just trying to look and feel healthy.

The most incredible thing however is how people are happy with their lives even if it is tough, even if it is hard to get by and even if it is the same thing day after day after day. There are people that have experienced so much, but continue living because they must, because they need to for themselves and for their kids.

Why cant we, who are better off, who have better opportunities, who have countless chances, who have an enviable amount of choices, not be happy?

[okiepokey]

Independence. Faith. Worship. Determination. Resistance. Hope. Color. Nature. Wanderlust. Humility. Visibility. Light. Vigilance. Companionship. Prosperity. Dreams. Courage. Tenacity.

[okiepokey]

White.

In a world so very, very far away,

at the end of a closing day,

a little child was born and raised,

away from a world so very crazed.

Deep in that forest, a forgotten place.

Fruit from the birds, honey from the bees.

She found shelter under trees,

she grew up in their company, they became her family.

Horses appeared in her sight,

the fireflies leading her through those woods at night.

Into a place deep within,

a place to hide your deepest sins.

She unfurls her golden wings, flying out into the cool night,

her dress flowing a brilliant white.

Free.