#projecthailmaryfictive

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One of the few positives of being here is finally being able to relax for once.

Don't have to worry about saving the world. Or worry about anything prison related. I can finally just relax.

- Stratt (Eva Stratt (from Project Hail Mary) fictive)

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CW for um. I believe it would be etimaphobia?? Uhm. I mention that I toss my cookies in here. Be wary! I'm sure mod will catch any more I miss and put those in the tags, so please be careful!! Stay safe guys :3

Hiiii uhm. Ryland Grace fictive from. From before! The one with the dyed hair?? Yeah. Uhm!! I miss everyone, especially Rocky and my kids (they're. students. I'm an unmarried man,, very happily unmarried, mind you ^^' ) and aughhhhh

Sometimes I'm tempted to put out a source call for canonmates because I miss them so bad, but. How do I explain that i am a fictive from the book that hasn't even finished reading my source yet, let alone watched the movie

Also, Stratt? What you did was a bit fudged up, but I forgive you, because you were one woman with all of humanity's fate on your shoulders. But I don't agree with the lack of proper training for getting me into space... The least that could've been done was making sure that the crew didn't have a crippling fear of falling (like. The adrenaline rush that most people feel when going down a rollercoaster) because. Taking care of that vomit wasn't fun,,,

Anyway I'd like to claim the 🌹 anon for my sys!! Just thought I'd let mod know that!! Any more anons with [emoji/name]🌹 from here on out are probably from the sys I'm in ^^' I'm probably gonna use 🪐🌹, for example!!

-Ryland Grace ( #🌹 )

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I don’t know if this is just because Eva was the first among us phm fictives to form, but. I do forgive her.

I get why she did it. I mean, the entirety of humanity was at stake. I just wanted to live. Worlds worst trolley problem. She tried really really hard to make it as painless as she could.

Well. There. I know every Grace talks about not forgiving their Eva, but. I guess if any Eva reads this… I mean, I’m not your Grace, but. Knowing you, I know the decision - every decision in Hail Mary - haunts you. You did your best. (I know just saying that isn’t enough, I know you’ll always regret it, but. I hope this eases it. Somewhat.)

Have a good day.

— Grace Ryland

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Canon disabilities? I acquired quite a few during my time in prison.

First off, I sustained brain damage, vision problems and migraines due to having been hit very hard on the back of my head. Next I got my leg stepped on and snapped like a twig, causing me to develop a limp and severe chronic leg pain when it didn't head right.

I was left mostly unable to fight back against anyone who wanted to hurt me. And unfortunately, a lot of people did. There are a lot of humans that were cruel, and hunger often makes one crueler than usual. I knew what I was in for from the beginning, being a history major and all.

Alongside that, I developed severe PTSD and dissociation problems. Spend many days not mentally there. It was more comfortable in my own mind than it was in reality.

Lastly is what ended up killing me. I acquired V-CJD. a pretty horrible way to die.

- Stratt (Eva Stratt (from Project Hail Mary) fictive)

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If it's any consolation, Ryland grace, then I did get exactly what you probably thought I deserved. As much as humans have a grand potential to be kind, they have an equally profound potential to be cruel.

I'm sorry for what had to be done. I don't regret it, and I'm glad you got to live a good life despite it. - Stratt (Eva Stratt from Project Hail Mary fictive)

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I miss Rocky watching me sleep. It's really difficult for me to sleep without him, now. Doesn't feel safe... I think I have seperation anxiety or something. I miss you. I don't like being alone. - Ryland Grace (Project Hail Mary Fictive)

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first kinfession woag,,

anyways, dedicating this one to Olesya Ilyukhina. I... honestly don't remember a lot, yet. in-character for me, lol. but. well. I can tell you were a really cool person. I wish I could've known you for longer. every so often I read a post here on tumblr that mentions you in some way and I just instinctively go "yeah she would've done that lol" and then it makes me wish I remembered more than that. I miss you. I hope wherever you ended up, you're having fun and not dying on the trip to Tau Ceti or anything like that. I think you and Rocky would've been friends; I wish you guys could've met.

sorry if this is disjointed. I don't remember nearly as much as I'd like to, and in classic fashion for me, I also didn't get enough sleep last night. I miss you. hope you're well

-Ryland Grace, fictive, from Project Hail Mary(#📎🌌)

(ps once I remember more about Literally Anything I'll send more kinfessions in I think. just. yknow. remembing stuff is taking me a hot minute unfortunately =( )

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socially and culturally an eridian btw. transitioned a second time. first from gal to guy. second from gender [human] to agender [eridian]. never forget that.

"last human on erid" my ass. there are no humans on erid, I'm eridian.

- Ryland Grace (fictive) #🟦⏳

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