work packing
it started with packing a couple hours a week at home 7 months ago.
and today was my first time packing at work...it was easier then i thought it would be but still awkward as fuck! its time like this i wish i knew more FTMs and asked them these questions!! i was i so nervous i was gonna have a moose knuckle so i kept looking down at my crotch, hopefully no one ever saw, i don't know what would have been more awkward.
i have been trying to come out more and i have been able accept it more and be more open about it, but i also don't want to make it a big deal. i guess I'm still in the embarrassed stage more then I'm in the loud and proud stages.... but do i need to be proud? i am definitely proud of myself and how far I've come but it doesn't mean i want to tell the world...... isn't the goal to pass with out labeling yourself....... and i think thats why I'm just unsure if i will even be able to start T...... i just don't want to change to fast! is that such a bad thing to want.....