I’m flawed. Socially inept. I admire people who gets to become friends that I think are splendid, I get jealous at the fact that others get more opportunities and their family has high income. I... my English isn’t the best, my first language, let’s just say I’m a failure at that. On Tumblr, any other social medias, every moment I’d think; “Why do they get so many followers? Why are they able to make friends who draws glamorous art?” All these questions... they are overflowing.
At school, I’m the type that has only, like, 3 friends? One would insist that she’s not that social, but in spite of what was said, she gets along with others really well. When I get to go up on stage to receive certificates, everyone else looks at me as if I’m one odd creature of some sort.
I don’t despise my close friend- However, it does dishearten me to hear people complimenting her, teachers would mention her as a good role model when it’s because they chose her to do so, and etc. She, was accepted into art club even though my art was without a doubt, on another level. It was probably due to my background that I spoke of in the interview. Splendid. I don’t want to sound like a grand empress of a grand castle, but I truly loved to draw.
Throughout this year, she was chosen for extra activities and picked to become a student councilor- She gets bonus points.
There’s more to say that my mind refuse to put into words.
By the end of this year, she was promoted to the best stream despite the fact that my overall was much more. Sigh.
I’m still trying, I’m trying to make myself known, I’m trying to get my artworks to be known, my efforts doesn’t seem to get anywhere... Hah. I,
