#pterin stuff

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I'm in Minneapolis. Safe but stressed. Food delivery, plywood, and emotional support are all I can muster RN.

Call, email, have the hard talk with family. Have the hard talk with yourself.

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Personal - Dream

I woke up this morning and realized I was dreaming about my mom doing her makeup in the bathroom at our old house. She was just going through stuff and getting ready, not saying anything I can remember.

I was pouring green paint from a tube into a tub so it would be easier for my son to use. (I don't have a son but my daughter likes to paint.)

It was really weird waking up and for a moment I forgot she was gone. It was sort of like losing her all over again.

It was nice to see her face alive and smiling.... especially since the image I can't get out of my mind is of her cold and on the floor.

I hope I dream about her again. I hope she talks to me. I miss her so much.

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I feel like such an old fogey... A: I said old fogey B: I had to ask our neighbors to turn down their music at 7pm because my daughter is teething and exhausted so she wants to sleep but the music makes her want to dance. Poor toddler was crying while shaking her hips to outkast.

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Sometimes I look at my kid and think, "You made this..."

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FYI When I'm on tumblr, I'm probably nursing my kid. Or holding her while she sleeps because she's so little and squishy.

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Personal rant

Feel free to ignore. My FIL invited us over for a BBQ and we accepted because my SIL and her family didn't want to be the only ones there. Their dad is emotionally unavailable and his wife is a frigid bitch who full on ignores us when we come over. Like I say hi to thin air and get a stronger reaction. No exaggeration. She won't even make eye contact. Anyway... Now we've been told we can't come to the house and that he'll meet is somewhere because his wife thinks we don't like her and he doesn't want to be awkward. Damn straight we don't like her but we're adults and can be nice enough. No one has been anything but kind despite her being a terrible person. We can't go to his house because of her and there's an excessive heat warning for tomorrow. That'll be awesome with a toddler and a kindergartener. Let's make them miserable to spare this terrible woman's feelings.

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There's a Prince piano at our local mall set out for people to play. The girls did their first public performance. It was a little rough but I think they'll be ready by their next show. Also, my toddler can now say Purple Rain. It's more "Poupaa reeeen" but it's adorable.