#puffy vent

[littlepuffy4ever]

I wish I was worth something, that I didn’t make everything worse, that I was able to think in my actions but I never am… I’m not a good human being bc I’m always ready to make you leave and hate me. I hate that I keep doing the same bullshit and that’s why I’m always alone and sad… if I was able to do something right… I’m so sorry, smol bean…

[littlepuffy4ever]

Idk why I still on tumblr it's not like someone is like "omfg I'm so glad that she's here". It's not like I'm fun to follow bc hey, I'm always depressed so what's the point? I'm so sorry for being such selfish and grumpy friend if we ever were one but it's not like you'll ever forgive me, don't you? After all your life became way better when I wasn't there so why would you miss me? I'm probably stupid for still suffering after all these weeks... but idk I wish our friendship hadn't end like that and that I wasn't a weight for you when we still friends...

[littlepuffy4ever]

Genuinely hoping this year will be the last

I can't stand it anymore, I genuinely want it to end so badly, I'll never be half of what my parents expected me to me, so what's the point? I could just end things quickly and then never care ever again

[littlepuffy4ever]

I'm already so tired of people promising something to me and then never doing it for you but always doing for others. I'm tired of people saying they care but never giving af when you're sad. I'm tired of tumblr and I wish I could go back in time and stop myself from meeting this thing. I might delete it one day and then delete myself heh it's not like someone will miss me

[littlepuffy4ever]

I don't understand why I have so much problems with alcoholic drinks. Like, I'm okay if a medical thing has something to do with alcohol but I can't see or think in alcoholic drinks. I'm about to have a panic attack just because my classmates were in a party yesterday last night and they drunk a lot of it. Like, I have no idea why I have so much problems with it tbh...