Hey, I know we haven't spoken in years, not even sure if you still consider me a friend or acquaintance at this point, but it's me, KA (or GB, or however you wanna refer to me). I just want you to know that I miss talking to you, even if my social anxiety makes it hard to have proper conversations without sounding awkward.
I know life is tough, I know life sucks, and misophonia sucks doubly (I should know, I have that shit, and I'm *also* dismissed like poop), and I know my words can be dismissed as absolute garbage noise, but I hope you know I keep you near and dear to my heart to this, and I only have positive feelings about you (/platonic). You were so much fun to talk back then, and I'm sure you're even lovelier to talk now.
Please know you are not an asshole for having a disorder that messes with your hearing. You're not an asshole for wanting some peace and quiet. And you're not an asshole for prioritizing yourself. We need to kill the critics in our heads, and I know it won't be easy because I'm a hypocrite if I act like I'm free—I'm not.
I know these are old words that have been repeated countless times, and they sound fake by now, but I hope you know that, again, you are near and dear to my heart, and I still consider you a friend even if we don't talk. I can't stop you if you decide you had enough—we live in completely different places after all. I just hope you know that you will forever be in my heart, as one of the people who were there for me when I wanted to end it.
I can only hope I can be remembered fondly, too. <3
-KA
Thank you, but I unfortunately atm find any of this (being somewhat good and deserving of anything) true, given how my parents are treating me as a nuance more than anything else
At this point, I think death will be better for me
One of my ewes had a lamb and I'm having to feed him which, okay, but in their barn, there's the three guineafowls that fsr my parents love having roaming free (atm just during the day, but my mother has already told me they'll roam free at night during the summer) and I woke up now at 4am and decided to go feed the lamb and they kept screaming soooo much I think I'll lose my head genuinely
I'm so tired of having panic attacks and breakdowns daily twice a day bc of these birds that will scream literally everyday all day long, my head is hurting so much, I can't concentrate on anything anymore and then I found my mom when I got back bc she """got worried""" and I asked if they (the guineafowls) couldn't be moved anywhere else and kept in another place bc I'm tired of having misophonia and being stimulated daily all the time, their noise is so loud the stupid earplug I bought isn't good enough (and I genuinely have no clue what earplug will help me with a 80-100 decibels sound, genuinely PLEASE give me any help if you know) and my mother just sighed as if I'm unreasonable and at this point idk if I am, idk if I'm the asshole in this situation and I desperately need to know bc I feel like I'm genuinely losing it and I'm close to doing something stupid against myself. The guineafowls used to be in the chickens coop and it was fine, why did she have to move them
You know… I don't think I want to change. I like it in here. For the first time in a long time, I feel like I'm… like I'm right where I'm supposed to be.
Chiwetel Ejiofor as Clark
Backrooms (2026) dir. Kane Parsons
TERFS DID THIS TO ME ON TUMBLR. I got an anon telling me I passed terribly. like. I'm literally cis and by telling me I do not pass, you are showing that you view womanhood in ways that are not only regressive for trans folk but also regressive and harmful for the very cis women you claim to support and prioritize. They uphold the very beauty and gender performative standards they seek to diminish. Fuck terfs.
Daily reminder that TERFism has roots in both fascism (eugenics, patriarchal gender performance) and white supremacy (euronormative standards of beauty and biology) and is by no means a viable form of feminism.
At this point I know I'm going to do it, it genuinely isn't a "if" it's a "when", when I manage to get the courage to do it and everything
I hate having misophonia and I knowwww no one will ever take me seriously bc my parents have these stupid ass guineafowls that stay on our door and scream the entireeeeee daaaaay and I'm so tired of hitting myself to deal with the stress of the sound
But if I complain I'm annoying and making them to be the bad guys
Como eu queria ser normal meu Deus 😭😭😭 eu odeio q minha mãe inventou de ter a merda dessas angolistas no pátio pq elas gritam o TEMPO TODO e eu sou a bosta da filha q tem misofonia e faz da vida dos meus pais um inferno na terra
Meu deusssssss pq q eu não só morro de uma vez. Acaba com tudo e eu não incomodo mais ninguém
⋆。𓆝 𓆟 𓆞·。 Disclaimers : I only use my handphone when making this skin and not an expert so i apologize if there's some places that look odd and some texts are hard to read. Images and pngs are from Tumblr and Pinterest, i tried to pick carefully so there's no AI used. I used this, this and followed very little bits of this CSS codes. I take no request. Dividers by @huraxy-dividers @pixopix
𖦹˚𓇼˚‧ Orca and Whale–especially Humpback Whale–are known to have deep hatred towards one another. Ironically i love them both, and i want to make a skin in reverence for those beautiful creatures where they seem to coexist with each other. Blue is my favorite color and i have been in love with ocean so i'm a little bewildered how i didn't make blue/sea theme skin until now lol! Easily this is my personal favorite skin out of all the others that i made.
light mode version🦪🪸
my ao3 skins masterlist
Tutorial how to activate the skin + the code :
Copy the code i provided in this GitHub, there is a copy button at the top right(•••) of the code box. And here if you prefer Google doc.
Sign to your AO3 account, after that go to "Dashboard".
On your "Dashboard", tap on a section called "Skins".
On the "Skins" page, tap on the button labelled "Create Site Skin".
Give your site skin a unique title, i usually use 2-4 word for the skins that i saved. IF YOUR SKIN NAME IS NOT UNIQUE, YOU CAN'T SAVE THE SKIN.
Paste the codes you copied from my GitHub into the "CSS" box.
When you're done, scroll to the bottom of the page and click a button labelled "Submit". This will save your site skin and take you to a new page where you can see the title of your skin as well as all of the code.
Click "My Site Skin" and you can see the skin are added, press "Use" to activate it.
If the Whale and Orca background image in the right border makes the texts unreadable to you when reading a fic, you can make it smaller by simply find this code ↓