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[godofcrochet]

FIRE!!!!

The only fire is the one in my pants, these punk edits are really getting to me.

Would anyone be willing to edit a pic or two for me?

I would go gaga over it and really appreciate it.

Thanks you in advance!!!

[skinnyismyinspiration]

Been a long day at school, so glad i can come home to this

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[bolesie15]

Don't Let Me Go: Chapter 10

As I slowly open my eyes I feel a full blown migraine happening and I slam my eyes closed at the bright white light, I hear voices talking softly and I focus on them. “We got into a fight last night, and then I went to bed and she stayed in the living room. I was being stupid and then I heard her get up and get into the shower, I went back to bed and when I woke up the shower was still on. I ran inside and pulled her out and the water was freezing, she was shivering and her eyes were open but she wasn’t responding to me. I didn’t know what to do so I changed her into dry clothes and covered her up in blankets and held her. When she woke up she was out of it and she wasn’t really talking, then out of nowhere she was screaming and shaking. She just passed out and I took her here but I didn’t know what was happening.” I hear Harry say and I can tell he’s crying.

“Mate, I know but she is steady now. The doctors will be here soon and we will figure it out.” I hear Liam say and I curl up tighter.

“But it’s my fault, if I didn’t blow up at her, if I would have seen the bruise on her face, if I wouldn’t have left her there and gotten drunk. It’s my fault.” Harry says as he starts sobbing, I slowly open my eyes and I see that I’m covered in blankets and tubes. I squeak and sit up quickly before a sharp pain goes through my body and I cry out, the voices fall silent and I see Harry run into my room. “Oh my god! Baby you’re awake!” He says and he runs to my side, I let him pull me to him gently and he runs his fingers through my hair softly. I feel tears well up in my eyes and I cling to him, I wrap my arms around him and I inhale his scent.

“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry that I was so stupid. I’m sorry.” I say into his chest and he gently rocks me.

“No, you’re okay. I understand now, I get it. I’m sorry.” He says and I nod before we hear the door open, I look up to see Perrie and Zayn walking inside.

“Hey Demi.” Perrie says as Harry sits down next to me and holds my hand.

“Hey.” I say quietly with a small smile.

“We just came to bring you a burger and fries.” Zayn says and I smile.

“Thank you, you can stay if you want.” I say and they smile.

“We would but we have to go see Zayn’s parents.” Perrie says and I giggle.

“Well have fun with that.” I say and I close my eyes against the bright light, I hear them leave and I fall silent as I curl up in a ball under the blanket. Harry rubs the back of my hand with his big thumb and I feel ashamed of myself for being so weak.

“Do you need anything?” Harry asks and I slowly sit up, I try not to grimace but Harry is too observant. “I’ll go get you some pain pills and iced tea.”

“Thank you.” I whisper as he leaves the room, I slowly start eating some fries. I look around and I see a small bag of mine by my side, I open it and I see sketchbooks and my iPod. I sigh and I lay back with my head on the pillow, I just wanted to get out of here. I hated hospitals and this was worse because I felt like my boyfriend was sick of me, I felt like I was too much to deal with. I felt an especially bad stab of pain rip through my skull and I cry out, my timing is impeccable as ever because Harry walks in right as I scream and he rushes to my side.

“Baby? You okay?” He asks and I laugh bitterly.

“I’m great, did you get the pills?” I ask and he hands me them, I take them and gulp water down. “Thank you.” I say and I curl up and stare at my hands.

“Please say something.” Harry says and I sigh and look at him.

“What is there to say? I fucked up and now I’m losing you and I’m already fucked up as it is. You don’t want to admit it but you are falling out of love with me. I’m not perfect at all, I’m drama wrapped up in a small package that everyone likes to fuck over.” I say and he frowns. “And yeah, I love you more than I love myself. I love you so much I would do anything to ensure that you were safe and that’s why I did. I was scared because anyone that would want to be friends with Charles is fucked up himself. I was just scared, terrified.”

“I love you too.  I love you so much and I would never want to let anyone hurt you.” Harry says and I realize that part of the reason I bring drama is because I dwell on everything, I take a deep breath and I lean forward and kiss him on the cheek.

“I’m sorry.” I whisper and he smiles.

“It’s okay.” He says and I nod before starting to eat, he smiles at me and I blush. “I love you.”

“I love you too.” I say through a mouthful of food and we both start laughing, I look up as a doctor walks in and we fall silent.

“Hello Demi, it’s nice to see you are awake.” He says and I smile and nod at him.

“So what happened?” I ask and he chuckles.

“You were just extremely stressed out and suffering from mild hypothermia, your brain caused pains to keep you awake and it worked well because you are still here. The migraines you are probably having right now will go away within a few days and you do need to take it easy, as little movement as possible. Your brain is still recovering from it so it is extra sensitive on top of the migraines so just be careful, okay?” He asks and I slowly process it.

“Okay, thank you for helping me.” I say and he smiles.

“It was my pleasure, now Mr. Styles.” He says as he turns toward Harry. “Make sure to keep her off her feet as much as possible.”

“I will sir, this was scary enough that I don’t want to do this ever again.” He says and I feel a pang of guilt.

“When may I leave?” I ask after the doctor and Harry have a conversation with their eyes.

“You can leave as soon as the nurse comes in to take your IV’s out, here are some pills to take for the pain.” He says and hands me a bottle full of small pills. “Have a good day you two.”

“Thanks, you too.” Harry says as I look at the pills, I remember my mom taking them on the night of my 16th birthday and not caring about my party at all. I sigh as I tuck them into my purse and I finish my food quickly, a nurse comes in and takes out my tubes. I take a deep breath and I look over at Harry who is watching me with a calm expression, I squeeze his hand before slowly standing up and slipping on my shoes. I was still in Harry’s clothes and I was glad someone brought me shoes. “Should I get a wheelchair?”

“No. I’ll be okay on the way to the car.” I say and he sighs after a few minutes before lacing his fingers with mine as we walk from the room, he carries my purse and we move slowly because my muscles are sore. I climb into the truck before curling up in a ball and holding back tears, my body hurt so bad and my migraine was absolutely horrid. Harry climbs in and gently kisses my temple before starting the car and holding my hand, I shift so I’m curled up against him and I screw my eyelids shut tightly.

“Do you want to stop and get anything?” Harry asks and I sigh and shrug, but he knows me well. Soon we are stopped and I open my eyes to see him picking out movies and buying snacks inside a small drugstore, I smile as he gets back in and I kiss his cheek gently. “I love you.”

“I love you too.” I murmur as we start driving back, Harry softly sings and the beautiful raspy sound calms me. I feel the truck come to a stop and I slowly get out of the truck, my muscles slowly stretching with every step. All that I wanted was a hair tie and some fresh clothes, I lean into Harry in the elevator to try and gather energy. I felt completely drained by the walk so far and I knew Harry was watching me intently.

“Do you want me to carry you?” Harry asks and I shake my head. “Baby.” He says sternly and I look into his eyes, his eyes are full of worry and pain and love.

“No, let’s just walk together.” I say quietly as the door opens, we slowly walk and I rest my weight against Harry’s side. I was glad he was so much stronger than most of the people that I know, I’m so glad I have him. I slowly sit on the couch and I grab a hair tie from the coffee table, I slide my hair into a messy ponytail before starting to get up.

“What do you need baby?” Harry asks as he sees me, he helps me but keeps a firm hold on me. I feel myself shaking and I sigh.

“I feel weak.” I murmur and I fight back the tears, I just wanted to be strong.

“I know baby, I’m here, it will go away in a couple days. What did you want darling?” He asks and I blush at his pet name for me.

“I was just gonna get some comfy shorts and one of your shirts.” I mumble as I slump against him, he easily supports me before setting me down and walking to our room. He emerges in a pair of sweats and a white shirt and has a pair of his boxers and a sports bra and one of his band shirts in his hand, I smile up at him and brush my fingers against his leg gratefully. “Thank you baby.”

“No problem, whatever you need I am here.” He says and I nod before starting to slide my clothes off, I pull on the other clothes and I shrink into the cushions in an exhausted state. Harry stands up and puts movies in the DVD player for us to watch together, he grabs some tea from the kitchen before I weakly pull one of our blankets over my body and curl up. “Do you want anything, beautiful?”

“No.” I mumble before I feel him lift me up with ease and settle beneath me before setting me down on his chest, I curl into him and I nuzzle my head into him quietly. I feel the pain ebbing within my body and I let out a strained whimper.

“What can I do to help you, baby?” Harry asks and I slowly shake my head as I squeeze my eyes shut, I feel Harry pull the blanket over us and lay back so I’m lying on top of him. I smile slightly before letting exhaustion take over my body.

A few hours later I wake up on top of Harry wide awake, I slowly sit up and I walk into our room slowly. My muscles still ache but I really wanna take a shower, I walk to the bathroom and strip before walking into the warm stream of water. I let it massage the tension from my shoulders before washing my hair, halfway through shaving my legs the door bursts open and I let out a strangled scream. “Baby?! Baby?!” Harry shouts and I open the curtain and stare at him with shock all over my face.

“What Harold?” I say and he finally relaxes and I see the fright roll of his shoulders.

“I’ll let you finish.” He whispers and like that the door is closed again, I sigh before finishing  up and pulling on a pair of yoga leggings, a sports bra, and a muscle t-shirt. I blow-dry my hair and I feel a little dizzy as I finish it, I slowly walk out to the living room to see Harry cooking in the kitchen. I walk over and I sit down on the counter softly, I watch Harry as he moves with his muscles obviously tense.

“Babe.” I say softly to get his attention but he doesn’t turn to me. “Baby.” Still nothing. “Hazza!” I say and he finally turns to me.

“What does Hazza mean?” He asks and I blush as I snap at the hairband on my wrist.

“It was what I called you in my dreams after I passed out.” I mumble and he walks over and rests between my legs, we stay silent as I rest my forehead on his broad chest. “What happened earlier?”

“I woke up and I heard the shower running and the last time I did that I found you in there and I got scared, I panicked and I ran in there. When I saw you, I just was relieved and happy and scared. I just never wanna feel like I’m going to lose you again.” He says in a jumbled blur and I pull him into my arms after he finishes.

“I’m not going anywhere, I’m here to stay. Even if you don’t want me.” I say and we both chuckle.

“I love you so much.” He says and I smile before kissing his temple gently, I feel my energy leaving quickly and its frustrating me. I’m used to being able to do whatever I wanted whenever and now I can barely do anything, being sick just plain sucked. I felt weak, and that has always been something that has scared me.

“What are you making?” I ask as Harry pulls away to walk to the stove.

“Chocolate chip pancakes.” He says proudly and I giggle.

“My favorite.” I say and he smiles. “Thank you babe, you’re the best.”

“No problem. You deserve to just be relaxed for a while.” He says and I smile. “By the way, I like you calling me Hazza.”

“Well maybe I will say it more.” I say and he chuckles, I slowly slide off the counter and walk over to him so I can lean against him.

“Getting tired?” He asks and I sigh.

“Physically? Yes. Mentally? Not at all. Its frustrating.” I groan and he chuckles before softly rubbing circles in my back.

“Go lay down and I will bring our pancakes out.” He says and I go on my tiptoes to kiss him, I quickly deepen it and lean my body into him as I wrap my hands around his neck. His arms pull my closer and he pulls away with a smile. “Doctor said no.” He says and I scoff as I walk away, I hear him laugh as I curl up under a blanket on the couch.

“Babe?” I call out and I see him appear with the plates and milk.

“Yes?” He asks as he hands me my things.

“What should we watch next?” I ask with a smile and he chuckles.

“How about some MTV or something?” He asks and I nod before changing the channel, I start scarfing down the pancakes and I’m full in no time. “So I talked to Lou today.”

“Ok.” I say blandly and I stare at the TV screen.

“Baby, look at me please.” He says and I sigh before looking at him. “He is sorry, they both are. They want to make it up to you.”

“I just don’t understand why you seem so okay with it. They verbally attacked me and you’re fine with it.” I say quietly and I divert my gaze to my fingers that are continuously tangling with each other.

“You think I’m okay with it?” Harry asks and I shrug. “I’m less than okay with it, I’m fucking pissed at them. I just figured you needed someone who wasn’t going to freak out.”

“Nope. I wanted you to freak out so I could feel protected.” I say and he stares at me with his mouth gape. “No! Not like that, you protect me more than I could ask for but that was just. It was personal and different. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean it like that.” I say and I feel like hitting myself because of my stupidity.

“OK.” He says quietly and I nod before grabbing my plate and walking to the kitchen to put it in the sink, I feel like doing the dishes but I know I can’t. I make my way back out to the couch in a sad mood, I curl up by the arm and I pull on the blanket again. I realize how far Harry and I are away from each other and I feel horrid, I curl up tight and attempt to nurse my aching heart.

I have always hated hurting people whether it was emotional or not, I just hated it. Now I hurt the only person in my life that gave half a shit about me and I felt stupid. I stay until the end of the show before standing up and walking to the bedroom, I slide under the covers and gently rub at the aching in my wrists. I fucked it all up again and all I wanted was the blade but I felt too weak to even look around at this point, I squeeze my fingers together to get a grip on myself.

I hear the front door slam shut and I gather up enough energy to walk out of the room again, I sigh when I see his note telling me he would be back later. I curl up in a ball on the floor next to the couch, I grab my sketchbook and I start sketching. I don’t even know what I’m sketching, but I just let my body do it as I think about where Harry could have gone. I feel myself getting more and more exhausted and finally I just give in and slump over, letting darkness take me under it’s wing.

I wake up and it’s around noon, I stand slowly and walk into our bedroom to see if Harry is home yet and I see nothing. I stare at the bed for a while, just blaming myself completely for everything. I knew Louis was his friends and bros before hoes but it still hurt that Harry just stood there and watched. I feel myself slowly start to fall apart and I quickly exit the room, I lay on the couch and I flip through channels as thoughts of Harry with another girl intrude on my thoughts.

Eventually my thoughts turn to my rape, it always happened on my trip. I never told Harry about my trip because I was ashamed of it, I never stopped thinking about my rape and I wallowed in it. I thought of the rape and then I thought of him kissing another girl and that was it. I was all alone and people did try to get to know me, even befriend me but I always pushed them away. Even now all I wanted to do was push people away and I guess I finally succeeded with Harry, I finally broke him and it was all my fault. I didn’t deserve him anyway, I deserved Charles. He raped me, he took me in his own way and I deserved it. Karma found me before I even did anything wrong, and now all I wanted was to be gone again. I just didn’t want to be awake anymore and all I wanted to do was sleep.

I don’t even know where Harry is, he could be anywhere and I don’t know where he is; but it is my fault that I pushed him away so I’m just going to deal with it. I feel my stomach growl but I ignore it as I pull my blanket on and start sketching again, I just let my brain relax as my hand moves. I pour every single emotion into the drawing as I can and eventually I find the same sweet peace in sleep.

I wake up the next morning to the door opening and banging against the wall, I see Harry walk in with bags under his eyes and chapped lips. I slowly sit up and wipe my face. “Morning.” I say softly and he nods, he makes enough coffee for himself before walking to his room and slamming the door shut. I think he forgot about my doctors appointment so I pull myself up and quickly freshen up in the guest bedroom, I grab my keys and wallet before walking downstairs. Today was the first day that I was feeling decent and I just wanted to absorb it, I walk out of the apartment and shut the door softly before walking down to my car. I can’t remember the last time that I had driven my car and it was weird to pull up to the doctors in it, I get out and make my way into the patient room. I sit for a while just listening to silence before the doctor walks inside again.

“Hello Ms. Demi.” He says in a cheery voice and I smile. “Harry waiting today?”

“Nope, he’s at home.” I say and he slowly nods.

“So you feeling better?” He asks and I nod. “That’s good, I’m happy to say you are good to go now. You can do whatever you would like but for a few days you might still get tired easily.”

“That’s great, thank you so much for helping me.” I say and he smiles and nods.  

“Have a great day and say hi to Harry for me.” He says and I nod before making my way back to my car, I drive to the store and get some groceries before I head back to Harry. 

[bolesie15]

Don't Let Me Go: Chapter 8

Once we get inside I’m completely buzzing, I’m so excited that I feel the adrenaline flowing freely through my veins. “Which one first?” I ask Harry and he smiles, I can’t help but notice how nervous he is. “What’s wrong?”

“Oh nothing, I just hate roller coasters.” He mumbles and I chuckle before pulling him in for a hug.

“You sure?” Harry asks as I pull him and I laugh and nod, we get there and I look at all the people before pulling off my shirt and shorts. I run into the water and I glide all the in so no one can see the cuts, I cringe as the chlorine works it’s way through but I smile when Harry runs in. He picks me up and throws me and I squeal and try and grab the air, I resurface and we are both a laughing mess. By the time we finish the day, I’m tired and happy and relaxed. “Did you have fun?”

“Yup, I barely thought about cutting all day.” I say and he smiles and kisses my knuckles gently.

“You don’t need it, you’ve got me.” He says and I nod and smile, we stop and go through a random drive-through to get food. I gobble it down before curling up in my seat and pulling one of Harry’s sweatshirts on. “That looks great on you.”

“Well thanks.” I say with a giggle before cuddling into his arm. “You know what else looks great on me?”

“What?” He asks, playing along with my playful attitude; I lean up into his ear and smirk as I blow on it.

“Nothing.” I breath and I see him visibly tensing, I take it as a good sign so I continue. “Seeing you shirtless all day got me so hot and bothered.” I whisper as I gently tug his ear lobe with my teeth, he shudders and tries clearing his throat. “But maybe you’re too tired.” I say and lean back and he groans, he speeds the rest of the way home before running to the elevator. I walk in and the doors close, before I can resume my teasing he has me pinned against the wall, possessively kissing my lips. I tangle my fingers in his hair before biting his lips, he lets out a breathy moan and I feel my heat pooling between my legs. “I can’t wait until you’re inside me.” I moan against his lips and he growls, the elevator door opens and we both run to the door. We run in and he catches me before he slams the door and pins me against it, I giggle before we attach each other’s mouths again. I tangle my fingers in my curls as he taps my ass, I happily jump and wrap my legs around his waist; he walks to the room and sets me down before crawling over me.

“I’ve wanted this for so long.” He moans as I start attacking his sweet spot and making the blood rise to the surface.

“Then take me, any way you want.” I say and he moans as the words leave my mouth. “But you have to let me do something first.” I say and I flip us over, I slowly pull down his swim trunks and I yank off his shirt. I slide down his body before taking his fully erect and throbbing cock between my fingers, I start pumping and he lets out a frustrated moan as his head falls back in pleasure. I lean down and gently trace patterns all over the shaft with my tongue.

“Please, please.” He breathily whispers and I lean up to kiss him.

“Please what babe?” I ask and he moans.

“Please suck me.” He groans and I happily oblige, taking him in and hollowing my cheeks to suck him properly. Soon enough I am gagging on his tip in the back of my throat, I swallow as I gag and he moans and shoots his whole load in my mouth. I sit up and he watches as I swallow it, he moans and flips me over before attacking my neck. I can’t help but moan at the contact I’ve been craving for months, he quickly pulls off his sweatshirt and my bikini top before licking and suckling my breasts. I squirm and moan and whimper under him and I know he’s enjoying my reaction, he slowly kisses down my stomach before slipping down my shorts and bikini bottoms. He lightly blows on my heat and I gasp and shudder, he eases a finger into me and I moan. “You’re so tight baby, and wet. Who made you this wet?” He asks as he starts thrusting his finger, he soon adds another one and attacks my clit with his mouth.

“You! You did!” I scream through my moans and I gasp for air as pleasure seeps through me to the core, I feel the tingling gather in my core and I clench his curls in my hand. “I’m, I’m so close.”

“Let go baby.” He says and moans against my clit, sending me over the edge into an amazing orgasm. I collapse against the bed as he slowly kisses his way back up before kissing me again, I tangle my fingers in his hair and gathers my legs over his arms. “Ready?” He asks as he slides his tip up and down my slit, he’s answered by a moan before he slowly thrusts into me. He lets me adjust before starting to rock his hips faster and faster, I become a whimpering and moaning pile under him as I feel my limbs go to jelly. Soon he is slamming into me and hitting my g-spot with every single thrust, I don’t even have time to tell him before I’m sent over the edge screaming his name. He slows down again and I know he hasn’t had his release yet, I stare up at him as he watches me moan. “You’re beautiful.” He whispers before he leans down and kisses me, by the end of the kiss he’s pounding into me again and I’m screaming in pleasure. His thrusts start getting sloppier and I know we’re both close, I rake my fingers down his back and he moans. “I’m close.”

“Me too.” I moan out and I start shaking underneath him, he moans as I clench my walls; I do it again and it’s enough to send us both into orgasms. He collapses onto me and we lay panting with him still inside me, he kisses my neck and leaves a few love bites on my sweet spot and I feel myself getting turned on again. I knew I was going to be sore in the morning but I didn’t care as I squirmed around, I felt Harry get hard inside of me and I let out a long moan.

“Again baby?” He asks and I nod and attach my lips to him, he pulls me to him and stands up so I’m being supported by his arms and I latch my arms around my neck. He slowly starts thrusting and I moan softly. “You like that?”

“Yes. Yes. Faster please.” I moan and he quickly changes his pace to fast and hard, before I can think I’m sent over the edge again. “More, more!” I demand and Harry moans as I push him back to the bed and I sink myself down on him, I slowly raise my hips up and sink down again. We both moan out and I set the fast and hard pace as I brace myself on his chest, he moans and holds my hips. He starts thrusting with me and minutes later I’m sent over the edge again, Harry smiles as he flips us over and sweetly kisses me.

“Let’s give that pretty pussy a little break.” He says as he thrusts in and out slowly, I cling to his biceps as I moan and whimper under him. He knew everything I liked and as he ground his hips into mine I moaned loudly. I attach my lips to him as he keeps up the slow pace and I feel the bundle of euphoria building in my stomach. “Let go babe.” He whispers and I come undone under him as he fills me up with his seed, I collapse on the bed and I already feel sore but it was worth it. I hear Harry disappear and I look up as he walks back in from the bathroom, he picks me up bridal style and walks me to the bathroom. I see the tub full and he sinks down before helping me lay on his chest, I sigh and relax in the water. I felt relaxed and happy and blissed out as I curled into him. I feel him lift me up and I try standing but fall down on the tile, I giggle but Harry gasps and helps me dry off before disappearing to get clothes.

He comes back in with a pair of boxers on and he slides a new pair of panties on and his t-shirt, he picks me up and carries me to the bed. I curl up to him after he lays down and I snuggle to his side. “Thank you.” I murmur.

“For what?” He asks with an amused expression as I close my eyes and start drifting off.

“For still loving me even though I’m scarred.” I mumble before drifting off to the sound of his heart beating.

I wake up alone in bed and I stretch out my sore muscles, I groan and wince as my nether regions constrict painfully. I slowly get out of bed before walking out to the kitchen, I try and walk normally when Harry looks over and I smile at him and he just chuckles at me. “I know you’re in pain, you were whimpering about it in your sleep.” He says and I lean against the counter.

“Yeah, well, it was worth it.” I say and he chuckles before giving me a tender kiss, I smile and rest my forehead against his chest.

“I love you.” He murmurs against my hair until I start smelling chocolate and pancakes.

“What did you make?” I ask and look around him.

“Well, good to know you love me too.” He says as he laughs, he flips the chocolate chip pancakes over and my stomach growls. “Someone’s hungry.”

“Well that’ll happen.” I say and he laughs.

“You mean that’ll happen when I make you orgasm so many times you can’t walk right?” He asks and I gasp before smacking his chest, he laughs and I giggle before sitting on the bar stools. I watch as he flips out the pancakes and hands them to me, I start eating quickly and I moan as the taste hits my tongue.

“So good.” I murmur and Harry chuckles before sitting down with his, we spend a few minutes in silence before I turn to him and trace his tattoos. “This is the first morning I haven’t thought about cutting as soon as I woke up, I thought of you first.”

“Well I’m glad I gave you the strength this morning.” He says and I smile before grabbing my phone and changing the background to the number 3 for the days I haven’t cut. “What should we do today?”

“I don’t know, I’m kinda feeling like a movie day because I can’t really do anything different.” I say and he chuckles.

“We could invite all the band members and their girlfriends over?” Harry asks and I smile.

“I would like that, as long as they don’t hate me.” I say and he chuckles.

“They know what happened, they were actually pretty pissed at me for a while. They won’t hate you.” He says and I smile as he kisses my forehead.

“Okay, then I’m gonna put real clothes on.” I say and hop down from the stool, I walk to the room as Harry calls them up. I slip on a pair of his sweatpants before sliding on a tanktop that was pretty form fitting, I wiggle some mascara on before tying  up my wavy hair in a pony tail. I hear the doorbell ring and I walk out as Harry opens the door, I see Louis come inside with one of the most beautiful girls that I have ever seen and I smile at her. “Hey, I’m Demi.”

“Hey, I’m Eleanor.” She says as Louis pulls me in for a hug, I hug him back and he smiles as he plops down on the couch and pulls Eleanor into his lap. “I love your place.”

“Thanks, Harry actually picked it out.” I say and she laughs with me. I turn as Zayn and another girl walk over.

“Hey Dem, this is Perrie.” He says and she pulls me in for a hug.

“I’ve heard so much about you.” She says as she pulls away and I blush.

“Well I hope it was good things.” I say and she laughs as she sits down, I walk to the closet and I pull out a bunch of pillows and blankets. I hand some to everyone before Niall and Liam pull me in for hugs.

“How are you?” Liam asks and I smile.

“I’m good, better than I have been for a while.” I say and he smiles and nods, Harry walks over with popcorn and pulls me in for a kiss.

“So cute.” I hear Eleanor mumble and I blush as I pull away.

“Hey, what’s this?” Perrie asks and gestures toward my open sketchbook on the table.

“Oh, its my sketchbook.” I say with a smile. “I work for Wilkes here in the city and I sketch for them.”

“That is so cool.” She says and I laugh and nod.

“It has its perks.” I say as Harry pulls me down on top of him for the movie, Louis picks it out on Netflix and I eat chewy chocolate chip cookies as we watch a bunch of movies. “I think we need to get some pizza.”

“I’ll order it baby.” Harry says and kisses my forehead as he gets up and I smile as I curl up in the warm spot his body created.

“I’ve never seen Harry like this.” Niall says and I look over at him.

“Like what?” I ask and he smiles.

“So in love, when you were gone he was a shell of a person and now your back and he is whole and then some. He is in deep.” He says and I blush, but I can’t help but feel guilty for leaving him so quickly. I turn back to the screen and I slowly blink to bring myself back from the cutter’s edge, I hear Harry come back in and he pulls me into his lap right away. I curl into him and inhale his scent as Perrie chooses A Walk To Remember, I pay attention until the doorbell rings and I jump up to get it. He hands me the pizza and I hand him the money before I close the door and bring the boxes back, I set them down on the coffee table and I feel someone’s stare so I look up to see Louis’ eyes glued to my cuts.

“I’m gonna go put on a sweatshirt quick.” I say and I walk to the bedroom quickly, I get inside and I start gasping for breath. I beg for myself not to have a panic attack as I cling to the counter in the bathroom, I stare into my eyes and I splash water on my face before pulling on one of Harry’s sweatshirts and walking back out. I see Harry watching me as I walk over and I get a piece with pepperoni on it, I sit down next to him and fix my eyes to the movie as I feel multiple stares directed toward me. Harry pulls me into his lap a few seconds after I sit down and I can’t help but smile and kiss his cheek quickly.

“Love you.” I whisper into his ear and he gently kisses me.

“Love you too, beautiful. You okay?” He asks and I nod before resting my head on his chest and watching the movie. The movie ends and I look up to see everyone asleep on top of each other except for me. I slowly get up from Harry’s lap and I put the pizza away before drinking a glass of water, I walk into the room and I grab the big comforter for Harry and I. I sit back down next to Harry and he pulls me close before laying down. I pull the blanket over us before putting a pillow under Harry’s head and laying my head on his chest.

Now that I was alone the craving to cut was horrible but I just let it resonate as I think of how sad Harry would be when he found out so I resort to my favorite past-time of tracing his tattoos gently. I fall asleep with my head on his chest and his arms wrapped securely around my waist.

“Baby.” I hear Harry say and I open my eyes as I feel his fingertips trace along my back. “We’re gonna go out for breakfast, go get ready quick.”

“Okay.” I murmur and stand up, I stretch and walk to the room. I slip on a pair of distressed shorts and a random band t-shirt before there is a knock on the door, I walk over and open it to see Perrie and Eleanor. “Morning girls.”

“Morning.” They say in sync with a smile.

“Do you guys wanna borrow some clothes?” I ask and they both nod before I grab my makeup bag and do my winged eyeliner and mascara with a lip balm.

“I honestly love your closet.” Perrie says and I laugh as she pulls out a black dress to wear, I slip on my white converse before arranging my hair on the top of my head in a messy bun. The girls apply some makeup before we walk back out into the living room, Harry smiles at me and pulls me into his lap for a kiss. I giggle as I pull away but I let him keep me on his lap.

“Ready to go?” I ask everyone, trying not to look at Louis. I know he knows, I’m just waiting for him to corner me about it.