RANT/VENT.. after finally posting all I want for today.
After that manic episode of posting so much, I scrolled through Tumblr in such a joyous state, that I've start to remember the things I've done in the past from the content and accounts I've seen back then. I then immediately felt depressed and terrible, so I felt the urge to back down from the courageous things I just did like, seconds ago. So I deleted my commission sheet which I posted. As I did, I felt as if someone else wrote it for me.
I felt irresponsible and selfish. After feeling a good high from posting and receiving likes from people on Tumblr, it just kept boosting my confidence and eagerness to get more people to see my creations.
I know for one that I shouldn't stick around and obsess over things like these, but that it happen tonight, that my feelings sank and my awareness had my eyes open to see what I've done - I just felt like making this post on Tumblr. It's so ironic, but god. It's late, so what can I do?
I'll try to feel better tomorrow. Maybe my emotions are jumbled due to the changes of my body. If you're reading at this sentence that I'm currently writing right now, thank you if you even bothered to try and understand. But it's a online rant that always happens a day in a month in a year.
Edit: I'm so sorry if what I had written is so, so vague.