I have felt rather stagnant as of late. I have had no desire to leave my home. When I do HAVE TO go outside, I make sure I do so when it is very early or after dark. This is due to the fact that fewer people are out at these times. I have ALWAYS found hmans to be INCREDIBLY EXHAUSTING, however these feelings have definitely intensified. Human interaction has become almost intolerable due to the fact that I feel EVERYTHING and EVERYONE. I have had to step back, focus on and preserve myself and my sanity.
I definitely feel like I am in some type of transition process. I constantly think of myself like a caterpillar going through the cocoon process. I even see this image constantly. Right now, I just need time to go inward and focus on myself. This is OKAY. I have to remind myself that this is okay. Like they tell you on the plane, you have to put your own mask on BEFORE you can help others. Well this is me putting on my mask.