
seen from United States

seen from Germany
seen from China

seen from Germany
seen from France

seen from Belarus

seen from Netherlands
seen from South Korea
seen from United States

seen from United States
seen from China
seen from Netherlands
seen from China
seen from United States
seen from France
seen from Italy
seen from China
seen from United States
seen from Italy
seen from South Korea
list of new frequents:
concealer under my eyes
painting outside
jumping until i'm out of breath
listening to the local sermon radio to make myself mad
windows open in any weather
writing my objectives on paper scraps beside my bed
putting a cigarette in my mouth and breathing through it but not lighting it
drawing non-figurative things
writing. a lot a lot.
forcing myself to stand up when i want to sit down
forcing myself to talk to employers when i want to stay at home
thinking, "i'm nobody's little weasel" whenever something i am embarrassed about or ashamed of occurs to me
not listening to my summer playlist
forgetting what i'm doing mid-task
forgetting what i'm saying mid-sentence
forgetting. a lot a lot.
& forgetting to throw my phone across the room
My ocs hi😯
i keep discovering the people i think are cool in life often think i am cool as well. i texted one hometown girl abt hanging out this summer & she said yes and she always thought i was cool in highschool. i texted a girl from college how she's doing & she said alright and that i was in her dream last night. i feel like i am being given delicate perfect items of kindness and i am just too scared to hold them in my big numb hands
and good night to the stars on my ceiling left by the previous tenant
every so often i go through the entirety of the blog of someone i used to know. naturally, this invites the question, "why is it that you 'used-to' know them?" also, maybe, if you were personally invested in my interests, the question, "why their entire blog?" and the answer to one is, it was my fault this time, and it happened so long ago my hair is four inches longer. the other answer is that sometimes when you show enough investment in someone else's mystery, they follow you around forever in silent unseeable ways.
god blessed me with neurosis so i could correlate my prayers for help with incoming misfortune and pain
my drafts are my other blog