past &&. @pxtaekwoon ; a fool is one who out of devils makes saints.
kyungsoo is well aware of the borders he may and may not cross – he simply got to the conclusion that some things are simply not usual, even if he is very positive about them. the fact that he has to deal with sonder bothers him to a certain level. oh, not sure of what it is? well, our boy would simply tell you it is the realization that everyone that passes by you has their own lives, as complex and vivid as your own. and perhaps you will be someone’s key supporting character, a turning point, a plot twist, or merely someone drinking a coffee in the background, unimportant, replaceable. it is a chaotic feeling to have, he thinks, because he wishes to know each story – be able to touch each and be touched too.
kyungsoo is well aware of the border he may and may not cross, though he does not usually respect them – his curiosity never speaks to him, you see, it comes in a golden roar, and crawls through the wrinkles of his brain, planting dazzling question marks and commas to his conscience.
this is why he made his way to the mansion’s gate that blue morning, notebook the color of infinity in hand which was coincidentally the color tinting his mind with possibilities. his biggest question mark was who lived there, right after came who participated on what seemed a royal circus bathed by cascades of gold. he heard rumors – of the parties thrown, of the people invited. but to come there he ignored some, also – of the gore under the owners nails, of the bones behind the wallpapers. acknowledged or ignored, they had kyungsoo’s feet walking towards the high construction, feeling both encouraged and smaller each step taken.
he was quite clueless at first; uneasy, unsure. his eyes ran up and down the construction, body then twirling slowly on his feet’s heels to scan the rest of his surroundings. there was a certain movement of people entering and exiting the gates that morning, which kyungsoo could only compare to waves clashing and pulling the shore in his round handwriting. then he sat his body right there, resting the bottom of his spine on the cold metal of the fences; he took notes on how high it was, as if spears threatening to pierce god when he was too distracted.
for hours he stayed, noticing each different expressions of those who drove, walked or ran by him – some ported the royal smile of moneymakers, those whose souls are tainted by gold or the mere taste of it; some frowned, staring at their feet, worrisome placing a world on their shoulders kyungsoo could clearly see if he just squinted his eyes a little. and he wrote it all. and he kept on it even when the voice came, attempting to pull him out of the pit of his ideas.
“a moment, please” he asked, turning his head ever so slightly though never taking his eyes off his words. kyungsoo sighed as he proofread some of his notes, making a little correction here and there before turning his head to eye a very tall man behind the gate. “i’m sorry, i was just writing – you were saying?” his voice sounded a little too distant, as if his mouth was speaking as his engines worked something else inside his mind – which was exactly what was happening inside our boy. oh, he is just not very good at pretending…