☆ “[Ki]{1} blessed me by making me transsexual{2} for the same reason [she] made wheat but not bread and fruit but not wine: because [she] wants humanity to share in the act of creation. ...” - Julian K. Jarboe
{1} In Babylonian mythology Kishar/ Ki is the daughter of Lahamu and Lahmu, the first children of Tiamat and Abzu/ Apzu. Kishar represents the earth as a counterpart to Anshar, the sky, and can be seen as an earth mother goddess. Her name also means "Whole Earth".
{2} Transsexual usually indicates medical transition, some say only binary trans folk can use it, but I digress. If you plan on any medical intervention, then you can use it, weather that is hrt or gcs/srs. Transgender is typically used for the entire trans experience, anyone who identifies as a gender different than what they grew up being told can identify as trans, that includes demigendered folk that do align closest to their agab.
Entry number one: Creation, The Dragons, and The Spiritual Transsexual Experience as a Dragonic Pagan
The art peice I created represents the creation of the universe, as well as humanity. As I see it Tiamat and Apzu created the first gods and our universe, their dragonic granddaughter Kishar created humanity and our Earth/ is our Earth, this is all within modern context of their stories. (Not to be taken literally, I say this with the intention of these Dragons representing the metaphysical creation, not the physical. As I believe in them being a metaphor but they have developed in the metaphysical space, because if you can imagine it, then it can be real in a sense.)
Also, no, I do not believe in a "first two people", I believe in evolution. My art represents creation of the human soul, well the piece needed for reincarnation. I believe our souls are not a 1 and done, we have many souls that make up our current selves, that collective soul gains more energy throughout each incarnation. We collect enough until we become gods ourselves, the gods we know are our ancestors (even the original xtian god), they had to learn humanity before they could be a spiritual leader for humanity. We hold the souls of our ancestors as well, even the forgotten one, our loved ones never truly leave us, you may see a peice of them in your kids (even the adopted ones). Looking at the creation of us through both Evolution and Metaphysical can help us understand the 9 aspects of our soul and body. Those 9 aspects being the physical body, ethric body, sentient soul, soul body, intellectual soul, conscious soul, spirit self, life spirit, and spirit body.
Understanding the Human, the Soul, and the Spirit can help us achieve being one with our current higher self.
The Dragon’s teach us to hold both the light and the dark to create a path for our higher self to walk with us. We must not hide our darkness, our pain, our sadness, our anger, to validate then rid them (using coping mechanisms incorrectly) is to suppress them. You must validate them and let them flow throughout yourself, let them disolve on their own. (Obviously if you are in a space with folks that don't understand, then hold them for later, then release them properly. I.e. writing, screaming, crying, ect.) Do not allow this to harm anyone in a physical manor or mental manner, (Baneful magick is hella valid though).
🌌 By partaking in the creation of a better you, you are a creator of your own universe. 🏞
Dragons, "large mythical beasts that enjoy terrorizing villages with their fire breatheing powers-" Incorrect. Not all dragons have wings or breathe fire—and some do. Dragons are primordial teachers, here long before this current Earth <‐(I will not speak of my beliefs on that, as it may be uncomfortable for some). Dragons are found in ancient myths across the globe, I believe that even some deities started as Dragon Beings (ex. Brigid, Dionysus, Lucifer/ the Infernals, angels, primordial gods, ect).
{Disclaimer: When learning from these powerful Primordial Dragons, you must take into account that they are not deities, they are much more powerful. These Dragons MUST be respected, do not twist their words, do not treat them like pawns, do not evoke them. If you invoke (invite) a Dragon not in mythology and they come to you, do not speak their name to another soul without their permission. If you do these things without permission, you will lose the ability to communicate with the Dragon you called for.}
There are dragons for every element and season, even elements you may not see as being elements. There is no Dragon that completely rule over just one element, they may prefer to show you the power of a specific element though. But there are Dragons that preference storms, thunder, and/or lightning. There are chaos dragons and light dragons. Dragons that guard great treasures and some that live in the Fae Realm (those are sometimes called Faery Dragons, but that is not an accurate term). Many dragons are also shapeshifters, Dragons hold great power, magick, and ancient wisdom, they can be either more harmful or helpful, but are usually in a grey area teaching skills that may do either depending on the student. Working with dragons can give great power to you; just always remember that you already are holding that power, they are just teaching you how to use it.
To work with dragons spiritually, establish a connection through meditation, visualization, and intuitive communication. That involves asking Dragons into your spiritual space and understanding the unique abilities they possess and can teach you. The overall steps to work with Dragons in your spirituality are as follows: #1 Research Dragon mythology and symbolism, don't go with one source. #2 Create a sacred space for meditation and connection, doesn’t have to be a physical space. #3 Develop and listen to your intuition, writing down random (on topic) thoughts can be very helpful. Invoke (invite) your Dragon Teachers during spiritual practices, ask for an audience essentially. It may be scary if you start working with them all of a sudden, I suggest working with "smaller" Deities first, ones who enjoy human company (still treat with respect, they are teaching you as well).
The Dragons are here to help support your transition into your highest current self. Many are glad to teach you as long as you are willing to respect and learn from them. Dragon energy is very similar in vibration to that of the 10th dimension, and although this is a powerful energy, it is also one that is full of wisdom, peace, and knowledge. Most of the time we need help to get out of our own way and stop holdingour power back. We need to let go of the patterns and habits that have built up over the years, if you are freeing yourself from the xtian cult like thinking, you need to unlearn what you were taught. Once these thoughts and actions are gone, we are free to just be, free to live in service to ourselves. We just need a little help from those willing to teach, in all dimensions.
The Spiritual Transsexual Experience as a Dragonic Pagan:
☆ My Transsexuality is part of my Spiritual Enlightenment, I am creating myself to be the best me, and the best me is the transmasc that finds a spiritual experience in loving my trans body. The tiny bit of medical intervention I shall have, is not to shape a new me or to fix your perception of me. It is to match my body to how I feel, testosterone brings me a new experience, one that makes me feel closer to being my own God. Kishar is an important Draconic Teacher on my Transsexual Spiritual Journey, she made me Trans so that I (any trans person really) may find creation to be beautiful, the way she does. She shows me the light every time I see how far I've come.
When experiencing love, it's always beautiful, I choose to be t4t, the spiritual Enlightenment I feel when loving other Transmascs makes me feel the highest vibrations. As if our souls are embracing eachother in perfect balance. The joy I feel in my life partner, (he/him), and I (he/it/they), transitioning together is godlike. I can't wait to feel more of this, the Dragons have taught me that it is the most beautiful thing to have more than one partner, not all the time can you fulfill each others needs. I love hearing my Queer Platonic Boyfriend speak of his crushes, and I love telling him about mine.
Kishar asks for only one thing during transition, do not lose yourself in trying to make yourself appealing to them. You are your own god, you only need to please yourself.
{When I say "you are your own god" I don't mean I am/ you are better than anyone, or that you should do things against the reasonable moral code. You are only in control of yourself, your actions are not "divine interaction", they are yours, you control yourself. You make yourself, your identity is only yours and no one else's.}
{Anyway, this is the end of entry #1, I think I much prefer a digital grimoire over a physical one, much easier.}
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To fellow trans folk, Do y'all feel Enlightenment within your transness?
Absolutely!! 🔮
No, it's been too painful
Yes and No
I am getting there!
Voting ended onJul 5, 2023
