#queue56 expyr

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i think if Midas knew what was happening on sherbverse island theyd be even more pissed at me. and thats really funny to me

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I'm.. hah. I really didn't expect that.

I'm not sure how I feel about winning for citrine. It's a cursed team and it always will be. But I have won twice while being citrine.

Even Midas seems to be tired of me winning so much compared to others. But I do like seeing them so shocked. Can't say I wasn't shocked myself, but. It's fun.

The.. voices, I guess, are a new development. I could hear the things, whenever they mentioned me. Their cheers echoed in my head during the fight and honestly just worsened the headache.

It's weird having people cheer for me. I.. know Lockette did. I still haven't actually talked to her properly. I doubt I ever will. But it's nice to know that those out there hold something other than hate for me. Some of them at least...

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oh my god. you call Midas a fair god ONCE and it all goes down to shit

why did they kill me. thats like the one thing. I WAS THE ONLY ONE

and of course Noah won. of course it was him. 2nd time, *in a row*

now everyones gonna praise them. not me

nobodys gonna care about me now. i havent won twice *in a row*

this was the perfect cycle too.. i was sapphire. it was an odd numbered cycle...

why Midas. *why*

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hey, expyr? just wanted to check in..

i know you’re gonna be gone for a bit so i’m sprucing up the base! you’ll have to see when you come back but i think you’ll like it

the midmonth.. it was alright. you really would have liked it, it was a mixture of many of the previous challenges. my team won though! i have my wings back, as well as many shulkers for you to make boxes out of

.. i talked to saranya a bit.. she seems to be alright? just- tired, and from what i’ve heard, in pain

i hope you’re doin alright

- @bright-fallen-star

Wait you've talked to Saranya???? Is she there?????

...I'm sorry I can't be there.. I watched the mid month tho, I'm proud of you. I hope I can be back soon.

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I know that I won't be around for a while. The mid month hasn't been announced yet and it's making me worried. This is the worst time for Midas to go mia.

I left some stuff for Altair, I hope they'll be able to do good in whatever the mid month is. I haven't seen Oli around this cycle, it's only been Altair... I hope they'll be fine.

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i am one of the most loyal people to Midas.

but fucking hell that is not Midas.

i really, really dont like this.

the razzles on my face hurt. pretty sure they make noises sometimes and i dont like it.

Quixis, why is this allowed?

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I COULDVE FUCKING WON THAT

I FAILED SO BAD

I DONT EVEN KNOW WHO KILLED ME BUT IT WAS MY FUCKING FAULT

I WOULDVE BEEN FINE IF I WENT OUT IN A FAIR WAY

BUT ME FAILING IS THE WORST FUCKING THING

SARANYA WOULDVE SEEN THAT god i bet she wont wanna team with me anymore

WHY DO I HAVE TO BE A FAILURE AT EVERYT-

why am i even asking myself. ITS THEIR FUCKING FAULT

we're both failures, Expyr. youre flawed at your core, as much as i am. we both failed terribly. we're both failures.

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also those fucking fights piss me off so much. i cant really move right now. im in the void now but i think the rest saw something was wrong.

it was a 2v1 this time. not a 4v1 or whatever it was last time. but this time was worse. last time it was pathetic. this time it was.. it was just bad. i suppose fits with the Razzles theme.

if those bastards team up on me like that one more time they will, they will continue doing that, they always will i genuienly dont know what will happen to me.

Midas wont do anything about it. they like you dying. they like that its unfair. razzles or not, they always did. but youll stay loyal to your Midas, wont you.