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Smoke-grinding, brought to you by too much caffeine and the subsequent insomnia...

Gross, I thought I was past SPN's stranglehold. ALAS, I AM NOT! As seen elsewhere in the tumblr'verse, apparently soulless "lying creep" Sam is just an extension of his actual character (affectionate).

Soulless Sam said with his whole, considerable chest: "And thus I clothe my naked villany With odd old ends stol'n out of holy writ, And seem a saint, when most I play the devil." I'm sure there's meta out there somewhere ... Sam paralleled with Richard III. Royalty (The Boyking) who is actually, in truth, manipulative and villainous to the core. (Which, hey, isn't most royalty?) I'm having SPN war flashbacks to when the show was on air and being a Sam!girlie was truly playing fandom life on hard mode. We couldn't catch a break, between shippers, stans, and the show itself. It kinda sucked. (Many of my Samward-leaning fandom buds dropped the show at S8. Gee, I wonder why.) I should be given a goddamned medal for staying in it. I DEMAND ASS PATS. Jump ahead to now. Past is prologue. Seems there are some Sammies who've swung back hard in the other direction, to protect Sammy at all cost? Poor little persecuted, abused lamb. Everybody's long-suffering punching bag, bodily autonomy be damned. And then, I'm reminded in copious detail, that nope, he's not. He's a grown-ass fictional adult, fully capable of defending himself ... if he really wanted to. He's, in turn, unappreciative but jealous, and often casually cruel when he's not using the "puppydog eyes" to assert his will. Sam is both abused and abuser, as a son of John Winchester, just not in the same ways as Dean. Sam had it so much easier, with the passive neglect. He was sheltered, given as close to a normal childhood as a motherless, lonely child could have. And this apparently made him smart but self-absorbed. How am I doing? Good? Okie-dokey, glad we sorted that out! I had a little bit of a ridiculous SPN fandom epiphany in this, the year of our lord Chappell Roan, 2025. Why am I trying to protect the virtue of my blorbo Sam Winchester? Or give two brown, hot, steaming shits what other fans think of Sam fans? After all this time, whyyyyy? Nope. We done. To get all fancy and wrap it back around to Richard III: "...therefore, since I cannot prove a lover,  To entertain these fair well-spoken days,  I am determined to prove a villain And hate the idle pleasures of these days." Or something like that. Happy New Year.

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I love your arts I found in A03 making gorgeous J2 and Sam/Dean fanfiction look more gorgeous and your own writings and work. So far, it's not a question, but a devotion declaration. Any plan to inundate the web with more of your gorgeous art? The way you portray J2 and Sam and Dean is stellar. Thank You ❤️

Aw, thank you! I'm sure I'll keep doing SPN fanart now and again, but I've got a lot of IRL stuff requiring SO much attention. You know the SPN fandom, tho: it's Hotel California. You can check out any time you like, but you can never leave. I super appreciate the compliment! Thank YOU!

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I would love to know what podcast you were on talking about supernatural!!

Oh, absolutely! It's hosted by the awesome folks at Idling in the Impala. It's a fantastic SPN podcast that focuses on fandom and canon, and they're dyed-in-the-wool Sam and Dean humans. Smart, saucy, highly enjoyable!

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do you have fic/author recs for someone that loved leonidaslion specifically? their fics were ever… everything to me

Sorry for the late response, anon! I was traveling with my Fandom Posse. And I love posse. ;) Unfortunately, my brain is like Swiss cheese and I don't have a great answer for this! Leonidaslion has a very particular spin on Sam that I don't always groove with, even tho they're a fantastic writer. I asked my posse and they suggested some authors who might be comparable, prose-wise? Rivkat Flesh And if you like it deliciously naughty, Homopink Good luck! I hope you find some goodies in these author's stashes. <3

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wincest wednesday question of the week: mary's ring or dad's leather jacket?

h.w.w. <3

I've gotta go John's jacket. I mean, one: I don't think Dean's silver ring was actually Mary's wedding ring; there's no way that would've fit Dean's fingers. He's got some pretty beefy hands. I do miss that ring, tho. Two: Dean idolized John. He may have idealized and sanctified Mary, but he looked up to John in ways that ran deep through Dean's core. That's not to say he didn't grow to acknowledge the wide and varied shortcomings of John—he surely did—but Dean and John were enmeshed in ways he couldn't ever have been with Mary, for obvious reasons. In early seasons especially, John was one of the pithy reasons for complications within the family (which I found juicy and fascinating, and gave believability to these characters in a pretty unbelievable universe). Whoever stole that jacket, dang, they'd better not surface again. Fandom would eat 'em alive...or fight tooth and nail to own it, haha!

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your art is beyond gorgeous like truly some of my favourite art on this site

Aw, anon, you're the best! I hope you have the easiest, most sunshiney and fulfilling Monday possible! (Let's all pay it forward and send someone anon praise today, hey? What a golden way to start the week!)

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Sunday afternoon minddump...

...on Patreon and fandom. I’ve noticed that a bunch of fanart and fic that used to flow freely (on tumblr, for instance) is now tucked behind a paywall, and if you can’t afford it? You can’t have it. Look, I’m a writer and an artist. And I know we struggle to make ends meet and Patreon is one of the ways to address this. But it falls short of the “patron” ideal, wherein a person would help an artist with their expenses so that the artist could continue to create and bring that magic to a world that doesn’t monetarily reward this thing that, arguably, makes life more expressive and easier to bear. Fandom used to mean a whole mess of folks, exchanging ideas and creations and sharing the love we have for this thing, freely and joyfully. Now, “borrowed” IPs are sequestered behind a paywall. Sometimes they’re eventually released to the public, sometimes they’re not. Something about this, regardless of the rating of the content, feels so shitty to me. It’s changing the face of fandom and not for the better, imho. It’s turning it into the very commodified product that the networks are exploiting, but at least with those, we can turn on the TV and see the source material. Why do we think AO3 is run entirely via donations? And they in turn make everything public, for free consumption? Because that’s what fandom is supposed to be. Maybe the downfall started with conventions that cost a month’s tuition to attend. Maybe it continued with Cameos and people desperately willing to throw money at creators for so much as a glimpse of their handiwork. Maybe I’m too much a child of the free-lovin’ 70′s, and need to get on the consumerism train. Anyway. I hate it. I’m a professional artist. I personally believe we should get paid for our work, when it graces the cover of a book or is used for a product for sale. I believe we should get paid for our original pieces, by way of prints and paintings and t-shirts and yes, Patreons. I don’t believe that Patreons should be used to keep fandom from fanworks, unless you can afford it.  I welcome discussion on this! These are just ruminations bouncing around my head on this fine, sunny afternoon, notions which may well be flawed in a big way, but let’s shake them up and toss them out on the table...

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Not to like... perpetuate drama, but...

I feel bad for the mods who seem to be trying their best to be neutral. It does feel like they're doing their best and that they've truly pushed themselves into a corner.

Unfortunately it seems like they just can't get past the fear of pissing off the wrong people and...yeah. It's come around to bite them because some Wincest shippers are just sick of it and won't be silent about it.

As for me...I was super excited to participate! I normally write gen/hurt/comfort but I am a closeted Wincest shipper so maybe if the right prompt had come up I would've written Wincest. But this kind of thing is the exact reason I am a closeted Wincest shipper. I hide because I don't want to be treated as something undesirable and that I should be ashamed.

So whether or not they're "allowing" Wincest submissions to their "dark" blog, I'm out because they made me feel gross.

Anyway I'm glad the inclusive one was created 💙

Oh, nonnie. THIS. I feel you so hard. *shares shameful hugs* I'm out-ISH with my Wincest shipping—which mostly confines itself to art, to be honest, because that's what my id digs, and I srsly do prefer gen and gencest in my reading proclivities—and I, too, was super excited about this event, but then. I agree. The mods got themselves stuck between a rock and a hard place. (I talked to a couple of them for a bit, and they were absolutely willing to listen, so kudos to them for that.) For years now, fandom has been forgetting all the wonderful things it's GOOD at: community, creativity, variety, exploring fiction, and having so many excellent ways to filter and tag. Purity culture and virtue signaling has gotten conflated with activism and it's become trendy to ship war in the prescribed way, even tho it winds up being almost entirely misplaced. "Wincesties" (god, I feel like I'm 12 every time I type that out) have been made into bogeymen, and you're not one of the cool SPN kids unless you've got a DNI in your tumblr bio.

But as you age, you live more and experience more and you realize that things aren't as cut and dried and easily compartmentalized as you thought. You're not a bad person for wanting to read or write or create kinky fiction. Any kink. And social media gives EVERYONE a platform, good, bad or otherwise. (I know, I'm preaching to the choir; I'll stop flapping my dentures now.) Thank you for dropping this into my dusty inbox, nonnie. Keep writing/creating. Keep socking it up, if it keeps you safe. And if we continue to choose events that opt for tagging and filters instead of ostracization, we can keep fandom vital and varied. <3 ADDITION: I totally forgot! There WILL be an inclusive witch!Sam event, in response to the kerfuffle!  Please to be clicking here: https://witchsambingo.tumblr.com/ !