sometimes i wonder
who i want to be —
not in terms of a job,
but in life.
life is fragile,
unpredictable.
sometimes dull,
empty.
other times too full,
too loud.
life keeps teaching me
that not everything will go my way.
i won’t always get what i want
just because i want it.
i won’t receive things
just because i “deserve” them.
i can’t control everything —
and honestly, i don’t want to.
what i do want
is to be a warm memory:
to make people laugh,
to bring a little joy,
to give something good of myself.
i want to know how to create safety,
to soften fear,
ease stress,
quiet inner pain.
i want to be someone you can rely on,
someone who helps,
who listens.
to be kind,
to be steady,
to be a moment of calm
in someone else’s storm.
i want to be a home —
the kind you want to come back to.