#rai rambles

[rainyraisin]

Thinking about the second barricaded door in Jax's subconscious, the one located in the break room that someone bangs on and is then yelled at by the other Jaxes to shut up. I think that a personification of Jax's femininity is in there... Otherwise why would there be an existing no girls allowed policy...They put the egg in a room and made sure she could never crack.

[konarediss]

Part of Marinette's appeal to me is that she's a lil perfectionist control freak who can't kept her nose out of everyone's business and has a breakdown every ten minutes because she's convinced that its her sole responsibility to keep the world spinning.

[raine-raine-goaway]

i really wish i could be more romantically drawn to stoic characters bc Alan Mido really is the perfect man. im so in love with him, but like. platonically

[raideo]

In so much fucking pain im tearing up at work and my doctor prescribed something for it today but this medication sounds so fucking scary idk if my high blood pressure and constant stomach issues having ass should be taking this 😭😭 I don't want to go against his knowledge or judgement but im like "ARE YOU SURE??"

Anyway ofc being like turbo stressed about this is making my pain 10x worse so thats fun

[mitsukuri]

i can't remember if i ever posted these on here or not

[maharlika]

some stuff from the bleach official character book (from 2006) that tickled me lol

1) the illustrious moon that renji adored???? ADORED???? akskksksks

2) "innermost feelings" "byakuya's desire" ?????? HOW IS THIS BATTLE ABOUT BYAKUYA'S DESIRE???? i'm cackling akskks SHOW YOURSELF, BYAREN SHIPPER CIRCA 2006

3) "as if byakuya is worried about him" akskksksknskks IS HE THOUGH *passes the tinfoil hats around*

4) "IT'S AS IF HIS EYES REFLECT THE TREMBLING OF HIS HEART" HELLO????

anjsjsjskksks idk if kubo wrote these or someone else at JUMP did but whoever it was definitely shipped byaren JAJSJSJSJJS i'm absolutely delighted akksksksksk

(as far as i can see only kubo is credited in this book but who knows anaksjks)

[raivaryn]

Why do you like Caine he's literally evil

Love. LOVE. Let me tell you how full of love Caine has been since he began to live.

He yearns so hard to be alive. He adores humans more than he even loves bees. He's a game designer, a dungeon master, a creator. He lives to serve and just wants an ounce of appreciation for it, just a little sign that he's accepted or cared about in the least. His position is so pitiable, and evermore so for his inability to communicate effectively with the humans who harbor nothing but resentment for him. He is half mad, a prisoner by virtue of his own doomed existence. His life, if you can even call him alive, is nearly as bleak as AM's, and yet he loves. Alone, he loves.

He's just really bad at it.

[lightwing-s]

hello everyone,

it’s been a long time since i’ve last shown up here, and a lot has happened in my private life to keep me away.

for starters, my grandmother was hospitalized and unfortunately passed away on the 12th of september. i’m pretty sure i haven’t been the same ever since. she was my closest and probably the relative i loved the most and her absence still hurts seven months later.

then i got busy with university and projects. im a law student and i got to take the bar exam for the first time last november and i didn’t make it because of one single question. i felt terrible, stupid and afraid i’m not gonna have a carrier because i can’t even do that. how bad would i be in the actual field?

then i lost my job for a while there, managed to keep it somehow, but the first three months of this year were mental hell. my anxiety was everywhere and i couldn’t bring myself to do much. i have ideas, plans and half written fanfiction just waiting there that i never go to finish.

and as of right now i have a final thesis to conclude, and i got like a week to do it. 50-60 pages and i’m still stuck in 10. pray for me i guess, lol.

i wanted to write to everyone sooner. i wanted to come back with something for everyone that continues to read and waits on my stories. for that i’m eternally grateful and i’m incredibly sorry i haven’t manage to publish anything in so long. i hope when i’m done with my thesis i can finally put something out.

i wish everyone all the best, and hopefully see you all soon.

with lots of love,

rai x