January 16th, the universe moved, and brought me to Atlanta, with Verizon, I came with no expectation, only to work hard, and accomplish some goals. nothing more. I’ve had some good moment, and not so great moment, but I’ve remained positive. I’ve made some accomplishments with VZW, in an acting supervisor position, It’s been a challenge, and through it was overwhelming at 1st, I’ve settled into a groove, and made some strides.
During that moment when all this transpired, She reached out to me, literally out of the blue, I’ve loved her since 1995, she was the ONE, the only one, the only woman, I couldn’t say No to, not that she ever gave me much reason to need to say no, but she made me 10x a better man, but simply being someone that wasn’t average, she was the cure, and a curse. She broke the shell I lived in as a child, yet brought me grave unbalanced, when she married him, but for some strange reason, I couldn’t be angry, I wanted to, and I tried. but it never stuck, that’s not to say there wasn’t baggage, I hurt for a long time, and I hurt those around me.
So here we are 42 years old, we meet when we were 20, and the feelings were so deep, it was magic, but it seem the young age, and lack of wisdom, and guidance, didn’t balance well with the communication we needed to understand how one another felt about the other, misconceptions, and distance diverted our paths in different directions, but Bell told me, before she passed, “ don’t give up, I know you love her “ I’ve never given up that hope, and from the look in her eyes when we see one another tells me, she never gave up that hope either. it’s possible neither did the universe. Who knows