#ramble rant

[sinceyousawvienna]

I like to smush mushrooms under my feet the squish against the soles I know doing so will cause more mushrooms to grow but that’s fine by me that’s more mushrooms to press do you think someday they’ll come for me

whatever let’s just play

[tomriddlehyperfixataion]

Hyper what are your thoughts of the actor being cast for Severus Snape? Do you think it's going to be racist? Since every time (I think) there is a problem Harry would point out that Snape did it. And the fact that Harry's father, James Potter, is Snape's bully. So it would be like- not only James bully Severus for being a half-blood but also because his black!- .... Yeah... Thoughts?

iiiii eeeeeerm well...honestly ive been-staying out of it?? i dont...care about the reboot, i have no feelings towards it if i have to be honest. its just a cash grab and a last ditch effort to regain control of the world the terf created because many of the og actors are vehemently against her.

but, from a general standpoint, knowing the very basis of Snape...

he is one of the characters that should've NOT been race-swapped. for many characters, their race does not impact their character story or development. There are only a few characters that, if you do change their race; it impacts them greatly.

The fact that there are so few poc characters in harry potter, does not help.

Snape has a complicated story, a morally grey person who has done terrible things and said horrible things. Abused by his wizard-hating Muggle father and horrendously bullied by his own school mates, and eventually drove away his only friend with his BAD school decisions(hanging out with people who hated her just because of her blood purity and refusing to listen to her hurt about it) eventually becoming a death eater, aka a wizard nazi; joining a regime that only wanted the death of his friend that he claimed to love.

that, for me, only sounds like the actions of a very stupid, scorned, incel white man could take.

reboot race swapping is a fine line, sometimes-it works out *amazingly*, like with Annabeth from Percy Jackson, who was a white girl in the books and movies, but her being black in the show just-elevates her character, pushes her forward and makes every choice and her background far more impactful.

Snape being black now very much feels like a 'damn here you go', because we had very few black characters in the movies or books, i legit can only think of like-4 i remember seeing, and only TWO spoke, in prisoner of Azkaban, during the tea cup grim scene, and Kingsley Shackbolt, which i'm not even going to GET INTO how racist his name is like holy fuck(like bro, Cho Chang? The Patil girls? its like she asked the most racist people she knew what she should name her Chinese and Indian characters?? they are the most 'well fuck here you go heres the diversity you wanted' characters ever.)

but anyway, Snape being-so far-one of the only few race swapped characters just feels...very forced, and does not work for his character; they have this whole cast, and they chose...Snape...to be black, when he is one of the few characters with a very very exact description.

personally, if they wanted to race swap any of the professors, it should've been McGonagall, and maybe even sprout, not the one character that is under constant suspicion by our main character because hes a cruel bully to his own students who refused to grow up and refuses to see Harry ISNT James.

but yeah, i dont have an issue with race swapping-WHEN done right, and not just to make people of color 'shut up' because 'here, heres your character of color, go away and be happy' isnt good enough. alot of the time, poc characters are far more interesting and are often my favorite characters. but snape being black now isnt done with purpose, they're most likely not going to change anything of his story or back story or his school years or choices, so if nothing changes, if there isnt any-purpose-for his character now being black just to be black...its not a good choice, its an insult to people who just want proper representation.

[werdbytes]

Sitting here after another explosive episode of digestive issues with an unknown cause eating tinned tomatoes because teh craving (I would go for tomato soup but I don't feel like making it right now. I cannot stand canned after learning how to make it.) and thinking I run into so many people who tell me to not eat tomatoes, potatoes, eggplant, and bell peppers because they're nightshades and are inflammatory weeeeh they aggravate your condition.

Binches. I have tried to live without, and nothing happened. I am not going to deny me two perfectly healthy foods that are some of my absolute favorites because of some book you read, or a podcast you listened to. Some of those things suggest you put garlic cloves in places that garlic cloves have no business being. So much god damned quackery out there because everyone's an expert these days.

[tornadointhetundra]

There need to be less than 40 million people on government welfare.

I know there are people who need temporary, or even permanent, assistance for a variety of reasons, but that money doesn’t come from nowhere. It comes from Americans and immigrants who work and pay taxes. There are people on government assistance who don’t need to be on it, and that means they are taking resources from people who do need it. Resources that other people provided.

You are not entitled to someone else’s money, even if you are in need of assistance. You are not entitled to other people’s property and the wages of their labor. You socialists are always going on about capitalists taking away the means of production, business owners not paying people what they are worth, but it is not them forcibly taking the results of labor from the laborer. It’s the government. And it’s not the rich they are taking from, it’s the average citizen or worker who barely makes enough to take care of their family.

You are not entitled to their money. You are not entitled to the money of the rich or the business owner.

I want to help provide for people who need food assistance, but I don’t have enough money to do so. Why? Because government takes the money I would otherwise donate to charitable causes. You want people to have access to food? You think it is unfair that people are going without food because the government shut down? Build something that provides for them. Donate to something that provides for them. Volunteer somewhere that provides for them.

I am sick of being forced to provide for people who are just fine letting me pay for their food for no other reason than they don’t want to work. I want to provide for people who need it - who cannot get a job or who need help providing for their families or who are homeless. Not those who could work but don’t.

I’m tired of people complaining when they could change their circumstances and work towards a better life. I’m tired of people abusing systems put in place to genuinely help people and now the people who need help can’t use those systems. Think about someone other than yourself.

[tornadointhetundra]

I try to not let politics define my blog. That sounds tiring and exhausting, if I’m honest. My interest in politics is the long term ramifications and how the past shaped the present, in any case. When I’m online, I want to be distracted by funny memes and uplifted by good, Christian encouragement, so that’s what I try to do with my blog. I get discouraged when I’m surrounded by a lot of politics, because it reminds me of the bad shape this world is in, and I figure a lot of people are like me in that.

It’s not like I hide my beliefs or my political positions. I speak out against heresy in the form of Mormonism and that has, to some extent, defined my blog. As has my frequent and unapologetic posting about Christianity. I’m pro life, anti prostitution and sex work and pornography, and I think all that comes out in my blog pretty clearly.

I don’t want to be known as a right-wing blogger. But I don’t think I can just go back to posting memes and trite Christian sayings anymore. What’s the point? What do those do, outside of distracting us? I don’t know. How do we talk to people who would rather see us dead? What choice do we have? I will not compromise on the truth or speak anything less than it, and yet that kind of truth often falls on dead ears, and I hate speaking when I know I won’t be heard. It’s why I don’t speak with my leftist friends about Jesus or politics.

What do you do with no clear way forward? I’m not actually looking for suggestions. I just am vocalizing stuff that’s been running through my head the past two days. This is a turning point for so many people, myself included, but I can’t see what’s around the corner, and I dislike that. Who are we becoming, what will we be known for, how will we live our lives, when will we see the full effects of Charlie’s passing?

[tornadointhetundra]

It confuses me when people use the turn of phrase "right side of history." Because what do you mean??? Are you actually saying that you're letting the potential opinions and morality of people over 50 years into the future dictate how you act? Are you on the political side you're on because you truly believe it is right, or because you want other people to look at you and think you're right?

It seems prideful, to me, to insinuate that history will look kindly on you. It looks kindly on no one. Even when there is a 'right side' to history, to certain moral issues, the people on that side are just as deeply flawed as people on the opposing side.

If you are going to hold a specific worldview, do so because you are convinced it is right and good and just. Why care about being on the 'right side of history' when 99% of us won't be remembered by history regardless? We don't know what the future will look like, nor what their morality and worldviews will look like. We don't even know what is going on with AI and that's happening right here, right now. Either believe in something for its own sake, or acknowledge that you just want people to think you're right even though you have no reason to believe you are.

[tornadointhetundra]

Rant beneath the line. Feel free to skip.

The two good things about the job I lost was the financial security and the stability of having a constant job.

Now I dont have either and I feel lost.

I hated that job. And a weight has been lifted off my shoulders, the weight of despair and littleness and feeling like I dont matter. I have many new options open to me and I can use this time to volunteer and do the odd jobs I’ve been wanting to do for a while.

But that doesn’t mean it didn’t hurt, being disregarded and tossed aside like that, especially when I was making a conscious effort to be more professional in the workplace. It still feels like I’m unmoored, which is as terrifying as it is liberating.

And with none of my applications in the past month leading anywhere, I feel a little helpless in getting a new job. Like no matter what I do, I’m not worth anything to anyone.

I know that’s not technically true. I know many people who would disagree with that. But for all my bosses flaws, I still looked up to her and trusted her to do right by me, like she said she would. And she’s failed me time and time again, and she failed me yesterday. And I feel like I failed her. And she didnt tell me what I did wrong.

I would have preferred brutal honesty. Honesty hasn’t been a virtue I consciously uphold, but either I tell someone the truth or I tell them nothing. And I expect the same. And it hurts when people dont reciprocate.

And none of this takes away from the fact that I am relieved to no longer be working there. It was toxic and I didn’t like 3/4ths of the people and I definitely knew management was incompetent. I get to try new things and volunteer and rest. I have time to write and engage in hobbies and if I want to take a job in another state I have the freedom to go to in person interviews. If I want to go hike, or to the beach, I can do that in the middle of the week.

I have so much freedom and there’s tons of stuff I want to do that I can finally do. But that doesnt negate the negative feelings either. A weight has left my shoulders and a new one has taken its place. And, right now, it feels a lot heavier than the weight I carried Friday morning, before I was fired.