#random personal note

[spanishskulduggery]

I have lots of friends all over the world - I feel embarrassed speaking with them sometimes because of my country because a handful of them are directly affected by my country

I catch myself almost starting conversations with an apology

And the worst part is? They're concerned about me and telling me I should move somewhere safer for my physical and mental health, and honestly sometimes being in this country is like living with an unstable parent

Sometimes it's peaceful, most times it's an unstable peace and you're waiting for the next thing to happen, and other times a complete shitshow that you can't defend

[nostalgicphile]

An old friend of mine from high school has been fighting for his life the last few years. It was only with multiple transfusions that he is even alive today, so his family is organizing a blood drive in his honour to celebrate his upcoming birthday. I’m off to give my pint this morning, but I have a bad history with this (I fainted twice before after giving) so please wish me luck! On the positive, it feels good to make a difference - even a little one.

[spanishskulduggery]

My toxic trait is being afraid of failure AND being afraid of success

[spanishskulduggery]

This isn't a brag, but sometimes when you get to the point where you're fluent you come across something needlessly complicated or poetic etc in your target language and you think "I'm so glad I'm where I am now because this shit would have made me crazy before"

For me a lot of it is coming across something really idiomatic or phrased in an odd way and being able to get it (or at least a general understanding) and remembering how I used to feel when coming across things like that

...

Because on the one hand? The mood is celebratory - I have a greater understanding of things

And on the other hand, it's a little bit compassionate - I know I would have struggled before and I am not struggling (as much) now, and recognizing that it is hard and weird and maybe above my past skill level, or realizing I wouldn't learn really what something meant until years later

In other words, appreciate that things are difficult in the moment and see where you are as a triumph and cut yourself some slack on things you currently struggle with, knowing that you will get better and get there eventually

[spanishskulduggery]

Okay weird question but do y'all call it fruta seca for "dried fruit"? Not frutos secos "nuts"; that's fine I know those, I mean can I say fruta seca or do I have to use deshidratada?

I just want to know how many syllables I'm legally obligated to say and deshidratado/a feels correct but also feels like a lot of syllables for you, me, and everyone else

[why does cereza deshidratada feel like cereza seca with a diploma]

[spanishskulduggery]

I always feel a bit weird answering a question in full Spanish because I can do it but also first, what if I make a mistake and am not Perfect At Everything, but also how many people understand if I try to explain weirdly specific grammar concepts

Idk I'm always second guessing myself

[spanishskulduggery]

Sorry for being slower to respond here than normal, I've been really going through it lately. I don't know how much I can share because it's personal family drama but oof

[spanishskulduggery]

Learned what French Starmie sounds like [don't google that without headphones] from people at work and now none of us can look at each other because it sounds almost exactly like one of the bosses