A change in me
For the past few days I've been stepping out of my unbelievably small comfort zone. Yesterday, for example, I went to Knotts with my cousins and 2 of my cousin's friends and we talked to soo many people. Mostly the workers cause a lot of them seemed bored until we got there. Anyway, I started a lot of the conversations which is unusual for me since I'm very antisocial. The thing is, it felt soo good to talk to them all. Especially since it seemed like talking to them made their day. There was one, though, that made my day also. His name was Thomas. Now, when it comes to me and guys, I seem to always get awkward especially if I find them attractive. Well, Thomas was working the ride called The WipeOut I believe. You know the one by the big ride that goes in a circle and is red white and blue? Anyways, my cousin's friend and I thought he looked kind of pissy at first cause he wasn't smiling and he looked miserable. That was until I said his name. He looked over and smiled at us with the most beautiful smile ever (I have a thing for nice teeth don't judge me). I started talking to him while we were in line and the whole time he had the biggest smile on his face. I was having so much fun and, maybe it was just me, but he seemed to be flirting with me. When I realized that, I almost went into my awkward stage but instead thought, hey why not flirt back. So I did. We left to go ride some other rides and every time we came back, before he noticed us, he looked bored. But every time I said something that smile came back. By the time the park closed I ended up having the biggest crush on a guy I knew I couldn't have, but I made myself try anyway. I ended up sprinting all the way from Silver Bullet to the ride he was at just to flirt a little and get turned down when I asked for his number. Now, don't get me wrong I was upset, but at the same time, being rejected felt kind of good. Why? Because it meant that, even though I didn't get the result I wanted, I tried and went for something, well someone, I wanted. I left the park proud of myself for making over 20 new friends, while also feeling accomplished for stepping out of my comfort zone. The only thing I regret was separating from my group to ask Thomas right when the park closed because I kind of made my cousin that was picking us up mad (Sorry cousin Rita 😝). I know this was random, and probably no one will see this, but I wanted to post this somewhere so that every time I see this, I'll remember how good it felt and I'll hopefully stay away from that stupid comfort zone that kept me from living the way I should've. Now, who wants to go to Knotts with me next month so I can see the guy who broke my heart with his beautiful smile??? Oooh his teeth though!!! 😍