I could never be so in love with makeup
My appearance doesn't matter
I could never struggle with my body
Why would I care what anyone else thinks?
I have my goals to accomplish
Why would any one do them?
Taught. Indoctrinated. Driven in me
One things praised while the other ridiculed so you better fall in line
Rules, rules and more rules
don't let you desires come first
You want to make your family proud Don't you!
But she is me the girl who collapsed not accomplishing anything
She is me who looked at herself in the mirror and felt sick
She is me who smokes to feel something dammit anything
She is me who searches for love in all the wrong places
Stuck in a routine of changing faceses
She is an example of what not to become