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[wheninkbleeds]

Slide Made of Razors

You asked how I felt. You really don’t want the answer.

I’d just as soon glide down a slide made of razors into a pool of alcohol than have anything to do with you ever again.

Inspired by a prompt asking how to say "I hate you" without the words.

[raw--unfiltered]

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I can’t do it. I can’t imagine a world in where I’m not the monster I’ve created in my head. It’s like asking a person that has been blind since birth to imagine what the world around them looks like. They can’t do it because all they’ve ever been is blind. You can’t ask them to imagine something they’ve never seen or known. You can’t ask me to imagine a world in where I’m not the monster I’ve created in my head because since birth I was only ever conditioned to being that monster that everyone made me out to be. You can’t expect me to know or to be able to paint a picture when I’ve never experienced it or even know what it’s suppose to look like.  We all have wants. We all have dreams, but that doesn’t mean that I believe they will ever come true. I don’t believe I am deserving of anything. I don’t believe that things will be different for me. I can’t write about a happiness I might experience in the future when I’ve never experienced it since the day I came into this world. I have learned to live with excruciating pain and it’s the only thing I’ve known so I find comfort in it.  I’ve spent years building and molding the monster I see in the mirror. Me, writing something I don’t believe in isn’t going to change that.  This monster you see has spent years in the making.  It is years of not feeling good enough. Years of abuse. Years of neglect. Years of conversion therapy. Years of drugs. Years of excruciating pain. Years of being trapped in my mind. I’ve spent most of my life wishing for something that never came true. So why bother now? My mind has created a life of its own. I just really don’t see how I can be anything other than a monster. Everyone around me may hate me but what they don’t know is that I look at myself in the mirror and hate myself even more.

[danekhy]

Nothing special here. Just a peek into my morning routine — loosely and expressively drawing faces #withoneline. They’re beyond anything useable, but that’s okay. Sometimes it’s less about posting only the finished pieces or the perfect images just to gain more ‘likes’ and ‘followers’ and more about sharing the things we’re often reluctant to share. Because I think those are the ones that help show our progression! . #rawandunfiltered #onelinedrawing #minimalism . 🎵 by @rufusdusol and @lane8music (at Columbus, Ohio) https://www.instagram.com/p/Buyvk4JA0hY/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=mxe3mzyo6626

[thepreatyval]

#vavamasse And the progress continues.... #FitnessGoals #RawAndUnfiltered #NaturalBody #WaistTraining

[thepreatyval]

#vavamasse I'm back...... #RawAndUnfiltered #Fitness #Flow #WaistTraining #NaturalBody

[moscatoandtea]

We at Moscato and Tea are wishing you a Happy Friday. Enjoy this holiday season, a great Friday and some Moscato and Tea. #moscatoandtea #inezlaval #kekedennie #podcast #itunes #spreaker #soundcloud #fridyay #friday #girltalk #2brwngirlsonamic #keepingitreal #unfiltered #rawandunfiltered #LA

[somethingsabher]

Memories: You don't realize how broken you are until you start to process your memories. __ My son loves to go for car rides which is usually a good time for me to think about things. During this time, I typically just go with the flow and process whatever comes to mind. Today I experienced a true flashback. The literally experienced a bunch of memories amd raw emotions all at one time. I didn't know how to handle it. I wanted to cry but no tears came down. I wanted to scream but couldn't find my voice. It was one of those times when I needed to pull over and let it come out of me. After I pulled over, nothing happened and all I could say is what is wrong with you. At that time I realized I am broken and I still have a lot of healing to do. __ I'm hoping tonight's meditation session helps me clear my mind and allows me to sleep. I have no desire to go into the day tomorrow still processing these feelings. #mytruth #somethingsabouther #rawandunfiltered (at Avondale, Arizona)

[thepreatyval]

#vavamasse I think I see a 2 back, lol #Fitness #Goals #Health #Cradio #Strength #Weights #abs #Nutrition #Training #Gymflow #Thickness #Thickfit #RawAndUnfiltered