Mine? Maybe. | Raydi
Madi was jealous, that much he knew. That was the easiest part of this whole situation was allowing himself to acknowledge the emotion, but the rest of it wasn’t as simple.
“Madi did you hear me?” Ray quizzed eyes glued on the darker boy’s face for any type of clue as to what he thought about the situation.
“Uh, yeah. Yeah I heard you. Do you really think that’s a good idea though.” Madi asked attempting to mask the jealousy as genuine concern. “ I mean you barely know her man, I wouldn’t just let her come to the crib for the first link though, you feel me?”
He stared at Ray as he seemingly thought on the idea before shrugging and going back to scroll on his phone. “Yeah I feel you, but aint shit else to do tonight- everybody gone.”
Madi bit his lip before responding choosing his words carefully. “Nigga I’m here we can chill tonight. You know boys night type shit.”
Ray’s eyes darted to him face straight only for a moment before he burst out into laughter.
“You want to hang with me? What the fuck we gone do?”
“We can order food and play the game.” Madi immediately retorts ego deflating. “We aint got to though you can go fuck your random, shi I’ll just chill by myself.”
Ray face softens, “Nah, we can chill. Im just playing with you man.” Ray says playfully reaching over and slapping his leg.
The action is small but it feels like something much more. His touch leaves Madi’s body warm, a sensation like no other and it makes him smile. “Type shi, so what you want to eat. No racist shi I, craving Chinese food.”
“How that’s racist bitch you know I’m Taiwanese.” Ray says instantly cause a laugh to erupt from the taller boy.
“Nigga you know what I mean, but real shi you down?” He quizzes mood improving as he lounges back onto the couch beside his friend.
“Yeah bro, just get me whatever you getting. Im finna take a shower real quick.” Ray responds getting up using Madis leg to propel himself up.
Again there goes the sensation- warm and pulsating in the spot his friend touched. It was welcomed of course, but it made everything all the more difficult to navigate within their friendship. It was no denying he loved the man, but the extent to which that love manifested itself posed for great amounts of self reflection that he had never been forced to reconcile with.
Attempting to deter the thoughts he placed the order for their food and got up himself deciding to shower as well.
He sauntered into the bathroom passing a quick glance towards Ray’s closed bedroom door as he passed. He immediately turned the water on waiting for the space to fog up before ridding himself of his clothes and stepping in. As the water ran down along his toned figure, he grabbed his loofah and lathered his body wash on it as he began to scrub his body.
His movements came second nature and were performed with little thought as his mind wandered back to the asain boy like it had done so much recently. He knew his feelings were strong, insatiable even, but why? He wasnt gay or at least he thought he wasnt, but then again he had never felt like this towards any other human let alone a man so who was he to really say. He knew that when he was with Ray he felt safe and more importantly seen. Their bond came so easily and was so natural it allowed Madi to fall into a serene state when he was around.
Not only this emotionally but physically he found himself drawn to his friend, his slender physique and unwavering need to constantly have his hands on him drove Madi insane. His touch always sent electricity through his body and even though he was quite shameful to admit it, his dick as well. He’d never admit it but he had his fair share of nights were he would lay and endulge in his fantasy of his friend aiding him and his little friend out and now was none the different.
His hand wasted no time wrapping around his throbbing member as he began stroking himself languidly. His lip between his teeth hand on the wall to steady himself , his mind began to create images of his friend in front of him body slick with water as he peppers kisses along neck and down onto his chest. One hand wrapped around Madi’s neck while pulling his head down forcing him to make eye contact as his other hand found his dick and begans stroking it. Madi would wimper at the touch, knees becoming weak in the process.
The smaller man smiled menacingly as he stroked him painfully slow, swiping his thumb over the tip. once he reached the end. Madi bucked his hips wanting- no needing more. This did nothing to speed him up as he just peered up into his friends eyes continuing to stroke him slowly at a speed he deemed sufficient. A sly smile formed and Madi knew that this was like a game.
“R-ray, please.” he whined hand deseperatly pumping himself, the image he created feeling all too real.
No reply came, only the image of the other man leaning in eyes fluttering shut as their lips were millimeters from one another. It felt too real- too good and Madi could no longer control himself as he squeezed his eyes shut and came with a quiet cry.
His body became weak and he leaned against the tiles for support, his breath still heaving as he tried to make sense of what just happened. It was never like this, his fantasies that is, they were usually just him remiscing on what had occurred but this time it was a completely new circumstance that had and probably never would happen.
He sighed frustration beginning to swell with him as he washed his hands clean and turned the water off stepping out of the shower. He needed to lock in and stop this before it got out of hand.
“He is your friend. He is not your man.” He said to himself as he wiped the steam from the mirror revealing his own face.
He repreated the statement as he wrapped the towel around his waist and headed out the door.
“He is not your ma-“ the statement was cut short as he walked into his room only to find Ray lying on his bed with one of his hoodies on and the food layed out in front of him.
“Dinner ready daddy.” Ray laughed taking a big bite of rice.
All the color drained from Madi’s face at the statement and site before him. What the fuck had he gotten himself into.
