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[whoshammsisthis]

Day 1/2016

I like don't know why that was necessary but it happened And I earned nothing.

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Just saw star wars 7 a second time

I might sign up to do a maz kanata Cosplay in the future. I am small She is small We both know a coward when we see them It's only logical as the next step.

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Got some weird family baggage, irrelevant

For all my close friends who understand me and my mom don’t get along or speak.

The phone was ringing. It read private caller. I picked up to see if it was a colleague trying to reach my dad. Instead I hear my mom’s voice on the other end. She had no idea who I was. I panic, but not in the standard sort of panicking. No, I just start making fart noises with my mouth until my fingers finally react with hitting the end button.

I go back to scrolling on tumblr only to notice the machine is recording a message. It plays outloud.

“Hey John, I needed to talk to you about stuff and plans..” What plans? What the fuck? Confused already. “And tell the BITCH that’s answering the phone to mind-” I notice this is live. I press the end button once again and silence once and for all. I literally had the last word.

In these moments I had a weird stinging sensation run through me. As if I was transported back to when I was 10 years old all over again. This must be what time travel is like

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Relaxation is weird

I spent almost 3.5 straight months going to school. Today I have done absolutely nothing but shower and feed myself while watching shit tons of TV and cleaning out my youtube subscriptions. 

I have left a dent in the couch and my ass actually feels numb from not moving for two hours.

For the people I’ve been unresponsive to, I’m not busy. I’m actually just lazy and I apologize. I guarantee nothing also. 

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WARNING 12 MINS LONG AND NO CONTEXT OR LINERAR PLOT. An experimental cosplay documentary on Daisho con 2015

As it stands right now on my google drive. Hopefully in the future I’ll be able to upload this to vimeo or youtube but yeah this is the edit I showed to my class.

I thank all the people who attended the con and didn’t mind that I shoved a camera in their face as well as my amazing friends @100-percent-beef-jasper and @the-imperfect-example who just didn’t give a fuck about what I captured since they knew I barely knew what I wanted to capture either.  This was one of the biggest stress tests I encountered this year

anyone who was interviewed or mentioned in this please reblog with a name I can credit on here!

- @emiileee-cosplay in spirit mentioned

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Another found audio collaged coincidentally demonstrating how fucked up I am. Used for school, this has educational purposes I claim nothing else but my own voice recordings

Also I just finished Stakes like yesterday so Marcy’s on my mind.

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Hello updat update

I have abandoned this blog so much I'm so sorry I used to be so damn on top of my tumblr, what happened? Strangely I got really happy this semester and ironically my social media suffered because I was having too much fun enjoying my real 3D life. Funny BC last year I had a very bad time mentally and existentially but I was able to update a lot more. Some things though -lit one year later and I am a completely different person with a very different home life to go back to - I am just finishing up a very eventful and personally enjoyable semester (2.5 finals let as of this Tuesday night/Wed morning) - I will be back Saturday evening for winter break @100-percent-beef-jasper @the-imperfect-example @emiileee-cosplay - I have broken myself so much as an artist and I couldn't be happier about it. I have also learned quite a lot about myself which is great - I am a maintenance/janitorial staff worker at my school and will be going back to my old restaurant job temporarily during winter break. $$$$$ was also a huge reason I was so down last year -when SU comes back I'm gonna try and not drop the ball again. I am gonna recap the hell during winter break - my daily portraits helped me a lot last winter break when I was at my lowest point so I want to try and do that again -I AM GONNA WATCH SO MUCH SHIT OH MY GOD. I HAVE CABLE. I HAVE ANIME. I HAVE INTERESTS. FANDOMS WILL BE EXPANDED. -I plan to start work on my amethyst Cosplay for anime Milwaukee 2016, as well as other group Cosplay stuff with Emmie - I wanna do a lot and not worry too much about why I'm doing it You all can just get me snazaroo face paint for Xmas

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To my lovely friends that I miss...

@100-percent-beef-jasper @the-imperfect-example @emiileee-cosplay I've been editting this damn daisho documentary day and night and I'm still not done. I will post the 12 min pos once finished I hope to show why I've missed almost my entire break at home.....