okay hi! first and foremost you are not whining. all of that was completely valid and you are very brave for talking about it, okay?
secondly, the thing about not wanting to take the test is also valid. i completely understand what sounds to be impostor syndrome, and not wanting to feel like you manipulated people. <- this is not true. in all my honestly i can assure you that you are not manipulating people even if you don’t have a certain disorder.
things sound like they’re really heavy right now, and i’m sorry you feel so bad :( idk about the people irl around you, but i know i hope you feel better. your one of the best things about my day every day, so i really do hope you feel better soon.
and by the way, there’s nothing wrong with writing the same scenario/theme over and over again! yeah it’s repetitive, but it’s the how you do it that makes it interesting, and im sure your doing great at that :3
reminder that you are loved and cared for, and that even though things feel sucky right now, it gets better :) i love you ❤️/p sending hugs!
hi, sean :) okay. thank you for saying that. and honestly thank you for sending this ask too.
right. i guess i’ve gotta remember not to think about my mental health in terms of passing/failing. i really do appreciate you reminding me that im probably not actually manipulative. i feel guilt quite easily, plus i tend to imagine consequences for my actions even when there aren’t actually any, so that’s probably a part of it all getting to be a bit much right now. yeah they kind of are. honestly there are definitely a lot of good things, but i guess that doesn’t prevent the bad stuff from being there too. that means a lot to me, i’m tearing up a bit reading this (in a good way, i promise). interacting with you is definitely one of the favourite parts of my day too :)
okay that’s definitely a good thing to remember. honestly you’re so right about that, becuase i really love it when i read a good fic and then see that the author has written more like it. thank you for all the reassurance. you’re right - feeling like this definitely doesn’t last forever. i love you /p lots too :)) hugging you back rn <3
