Well
Had a major panic attack had to have my boyfriend and his grandma drive me home. Sobbing uncontrollably , still shaking , just got my breathing down . I've never cried so hard for my mom before , all I wanted was my mom. I told her how depressed I've become , how angry and lost and alone I feel . And she just held me like a mom should do and told me how we are going to make everything better and that everything will be okay . I won't be going to school anymore not untill everything is figured out and I'm healthy again both physically and mentally and probably emotionally too. I've cried for 4 hours first at my boyfriends completly uncontrollably and then to his grandma once she came in to see me ( which made me very embarrassed ) but she calmed me down So that I could get up and get to the car. I'm also thoroughly embarrassed that now everyone is extremely worried about me now , nd that now everyone will be watching me but it's kinda okay. I have come to terms that I honestly can't do this that I absolutely can not do this by my self. I just want to feel like myself again .
