was attacked by a pic of my ex after a lot of time not thinking about him or seeing his face, and it's really funny. i definitely don't fall in love with physical appearances, but he's not actually a good person either—at least not like i thought he was. u think someone is nice until u spend time with them. u think someone cares until u realize they don't. by that i wonder...what the fuck did i see in this dude? it was just bc he was nice in the beginning? is the honeymoon phase a real thing? idk, i feel like my gf is so different with me—in the best way, i mean. it doesn't feel like this phase is a thing with us. she has loves me for a while now and it doesn't feel like just a quick passionate phase. idk. maybe it's just different with different people in our lives. maybe i was just dating the wrong person—no, i was dating the wrong person, that's for sure, but like, i don't feel the same way in this new relationship. maybe i just learned how to love better. myself and someone else
