#relationships tw

[lin-manuel]

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[showmethehotpods]

First somewhat slightly negative post of the year;

Not that I want to be negative, since it tends to drive people away. But there are times I really miss being in a relationship. For all that it wasn't the most healthy of pairings, there were other times like sharing a bath, sneaking into my bedroom (since my parents said seperate bedrooms) at night just tokay next to me. To feel the warmth of someone someone holding you, to feel another's heartbeat through your skin.

Sometimes, with things like autism, I wonder if I'll ever have that again. Whether social shyness snd awkwardness means I'm now too old, too burdened for anyone to love. Having the confidence to go out to events and things help, but even then: there's a lot of people looking for sexual relationships, not so much emotional intimacy.

I miss the planning to go to America. The way my heart would burst just by seeing them. I know now not to lose myself in other people, but I also miss living and breathing for the chance to see them again.

I hope I die alone. I hope there's someone out there for me.

[buckybarnesthehotshot]

THIS IS SO RANDOM BUT IM ALSO SO FUCKING PISSED LIKE MY S/O BARELY TALKS TO ME ANYMORE UGH. I DONT WANT TO SEEM DEMANDING AND CLINGY OR WHATEVER BUT 13 DAYS WITHOUT A TEXT MESSAGE IN PRIVATE OR A CALL IS FUCKING ANNOYING. LIKE AM I SUPPOSED TO THRIVE UNDER THESE INTERACTIONS WE HAVE IN OUR GROUPCHAT WITH OUR FRIENDS???

I genuinely don’t know if they noticed or not but I’d actually enjoy some interaction. I’D LIKE THEM TO FUCKING ACT LIKE WE’RE ACTUALLY FUCKING TOGETHER BC YOU CANT JUST CALL ME YOUR FUCKING GIRLFRIEND AND PRACTICALLY GHOST ME FOR TWO FUCKING WEEKS

AND LIKE I DONT WANT TO BE THAT PERSON BUT LIKE I COULD DO BETTER THAN SOMEBODY WHO WON’T EVEN COMMUNICATE WITH ME EVEN THO IM LITERALLY OUT HERE REACHING OUT TO THEM AND TELLING THEM I WANT TO FUCKING COMMUNICATE. FOR FUCK’S SAKE, I’M NOT EXPECTING A “GOOD MORNING” AND “GOOD NIGHT” MESSAGE DAILY BUT SOME COMMUNICATION WOULD BE FUCKING NICE

[rowanthewizard]

It's reassuring coming out of a abusive relationship to have a list of shitty things the other party did. Cause when I get triggered at a low point and am ripped apart with worry that maybe I was the bad guy, and I was the one who did everything wrong; I can pull out the list, and look at all the things he objectively did that were objectively bad.

The 2 best ones for that are "dumped me for a 16yo high school girl" and "tried to force me to unicorn hunt my best friend" cause I may have been toxic at points and I have done some shitty things in my life but I've never done anything That shitty.

[wendigoworms]

When u desperately need to talk to ur partner and let them know what's happening and how to move forward from it, but, uve been in past relationships where bringing this exact think up caused u to get berated and ended the relationship

[peaachfuzz]

it’s strange because that relationship was really manipulative and toxic but i just feel like it was completely my fault but like? i DID tell him i was uncomfortable with things. and really i should have realised from the beginning that he was manipulated like he breathed due to all his fucking anon bullshit he sent to me and my friends but like. 

idk. i shouldn’t have to go so deep into discussion of past trauma with a guy i’ve been talking to privately for like. 2 days to get him to treat me like a human being.

and then it never got better than that :/ man why do men suck so much lmao. my best friend asks to show affection to me EVERY SINGLE TIME AND I APPRECIATE IT SO MUCH. men take notes

[the-infamous-singing-pig-man]

i fucking hate when someone's like "oh my GOD, stop complaining about being SINGLE, you don't NEED another person to be happy uwu" like????? maybe i'd feel better if i had a person dedicated to making me happy and loving me instead of people like you who only seek to patronize me for feeling lonely jesus christ sorry my pain isn't valid to you