#relief!

[b-beams]

had a really difficult (<- emotionally, for me to express and also conceptually to be 'real' things to me to need to talk about. not at all related to who i was talking to) conversation about a lot of the Big Things i've been mulling over on here and it went so well. <3

[amnesiaguy]

my insurance card arrived 😭 your boy officially has his own big boy medical insurance

[takethebodymarc]

im glad bad knows where they are phew

[sparrowsingsstories]

After stressing for a day, I called HR and talked to my leave admin and guess what? I work EXACTLY enough time to keep my benefits. AND I can do substitute teaching between Observation and Student Teaching to make some money and guarantee benefits - I already have a degree, so I qualify for Emergency Subbing (everybody needs substitute teachers these days).

Talk about relief. I don't have to give up therapy or my meds or anything.

[infinitelytheheartexpands]

okay. we can breathe a bit. Biden is officially over 270 electoral votes.

[agallimaufryofoddments]

Hello, this is (for once) a good news personal post. May good news and good things continue, oh please. Please.

I finally worked up the minimum of courage needed to open my uni email post-service migration and peeked at certain emails I’ve been dreading acknowledging--turns out I not only didn’t fail two (now-ended) classes, I got a great grade on the exhibition review and a good...review (?) of the essay I had to restart -- not sure what the actual grade on that essay is, but the final grade for both classes is. Solidly good. I was expecting the worst. Don’t think I could handle doing even just one retake right now.

Also, my Books app has repopulated w/the hundreds of missing EPUBs and PDFs I feared were gone for good. It’s not that this was the first time such a quantity vanished (it’s not), but they were gone for at least a day, possibly two or more (couldn’t bear to look for a few days)--longest they’d ever been gone, and I feared I’d mucked up retrieval at some point. Really need to ensure all those books and documents are backed up here, there, everywhere.

It’s not that the thesis still isn’t coiling cold around me, or that the group project for my one remaining class is still ongoing, but the relief on multiple fronts is momentarily superseding the Dread and I’m just. Relieved. Relieved relieved.

Oh, and this morning I finally did the second step toward deregistering at the municipality; now I just need to remember to check for a response tomorrow... I also got some reading done for thesis--can I count that? I’m counting that. Am also trying to figure out the process for refilling a prescription during quarantine in advance of when it actually runs out (month or so left); normally I have to do in-person med checks every time I need a refill, but I assume (?) the majority of in-person appointments are cancelled for now? Website isn’t very helpful.

Please, please let the next ten days (really two months) continue this positive streak. Whatever I do, I must not take this for granted.

[livinwithaltitude]

Back in der pool

I got back to the pool today. At last! I had plans to swim and spin about four weeks ago. Almost as soon as I thought it, something went big time hokey in my wrist. Back to having a claw for a hand, aching elbow and pain in my shoulder.

Three chiropractic visits with Dr Adam, finding a wrist brace that did not crush my hand and I’m back baby.

I’m slower than ever but I knocked out 60 lengths today. As long as I keep my thumb tight to my fingers on the pull, it’s all good. Noodles for arms tonight is a good thing!

Spin class tomorrow!