I'm back on meds after not being on it for the past few months. I feel better now but I still feel stupid for how I used to act when I was undiagnosed. It was so embarassing. I hardly ever left my house. I was so isolated and always said bizarre things. When I tried fitting in with my peers, they would just stare at me for being weird. I came across as an attention seeking creepy sociopath. I was desperate for friends. Now idc as much as I used to.but the memories torture me
Be kind to yourself, be forgiving just as you would be to someone else. You weren't in your right mind. Remember what you were dealing with before, how much you struggled and hurt inside. Who could act normal with that inside them, so heavy and hard on you? We all learn and grow as we age, and meds can help you be a better you. You were someone in pain, it's ok that you didn't act the way you do now. It's ok, genuinely. I was the exact same way before meds. I said weird things, I acted out, I was even agressive and mean. But that was because I was closeted and undiagnosed and shouldering more pain than I had any right to, and I imagine you must feel the same. Please try and forgive yourself. Past you deserves your forgiveness
