olive: is your muse prone to feeling envious of others? if yes, what is it that they typically feel envious over?
Pre- and during the War of Shadows, there was not much Camus desired. His talent and hard work helped him rise through the ranks and attain a generalship rather quickly, he was tasked with the long (and rather intimate) protection of a princess, and he had achieved fame across the Archanean continent by the time he was twenty-five, among other things. He was more likely to be the object of envy than to be envious of others, and even with matters of the heart, I don’t believe Camus would have ever envied men who could be with their loves. He always knew his relationship with Nyna wouldn’t work out the way either of them wanted, and he probably blamed his own moments of emotional vulnerability that fostered those feelings instead of wishing for different life circumstances.
However, as Zeke, it’s clear that he feels less secure with himself. Tatiana mentions that he thinks not having his memories makes him less whole, so he probably has a sort of contemplative melancholy whenever he finds himself in conversations where the other person is recounting a fond memory of their past. For the majority of Valentia’s war, this actually stifles Zeke - he’s so caught up searching for the past that he doesn’t realize that he can make new memories - but he seems to start coming to terms with it by the end of FE15 (his base dialogue in Act 4 is more along the lines of “I’m probably better off not remembering anyway”). However, even after he regains his memories after FE2/FE15, I don’t think he ever truly fills in all the holes, and so he’d continue to be somewhat envious of those who have access to their entire personal histories. He’s trying to get better though and live more in the now.
mallow: what sorts of things might remind your muse of those close to them? any scents, objects, sounds?
Though he might not seem like it, Camus is highly perceptive of his companions’ habits and hobbies, and considering that he rarely ever does things for himself, he’s much more likely to think of them when he’s in the marketplace, traveling, etc. An exotic tea blend might make him think of Belf, for example, or a rose brooch will make him think of Nyna. He’s less likely to associate battle with the rest of his knights, since he fights alongside and against so many people, but certain footwork or riding positions will remind him of his companions if they’re unique.
Most princesses, or princess-like women, will make him think of Nyna, whether or not they share any characteristics. Nyna is the only woman he has managed to be so intimate with prior to Tatiana, and so he tends to relate any new interaction back to some point in time when he had a similar interaction with Nyna, how she reacted, etc. His strong Sensing qualities (I’ve determined him to be an ISTJ) and the way he compares every new experience to a familiar experience of the past to adjust his behavior is a large reason why losing his memories left him so disoriented.
Since his relationship with Tatiana is different and built on a more autonomous foundation, Zeke’s associations with her are a bit stronger. I’ve mentioned before that Zeke enjoys watching Tatiana cook, so the scent of baking bread or frying onions can take him back instantly to their little kitchen, no matter where he is. The smell of jasmine reminds him of her hair. The sea foam on the waves also conjure her image.
He also has some strong associations with Rudolf, namely the smell of a hearth fire and bear pelts. Comforting strength. On the other hand, the crisp, biting sensation (and the scent that goes along with it) of a drafty window in the dead of winter reminds him of Berkut.
