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April 2nd. Greek Unity. VState Betas are in a really unique position where we have really awesome unity with most of the Greeks on our campus. Purple Fam and FIRM Fam are a given. We also have good connections to IFC, NPHC, CPC, as well as the orgs who make up UNDO on our campus. We got unity with others orgs as well as throughout our region. #SLB #ΣΛΒ #VStateBetas #REnegadeBetas #REnegadeMade https://www.instagram.com/p/B-gFWsCgRYo/?igshid=15pkxakzchlsh

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Founding Line, Ship D.O.A., turns 3 today! From our small humble beginnings, to bringing the colony to VSUs campus, to winning Outstanding Colony for the nation, to Chapter Status, it all started with these men. My line brothers. Love em to death. Even if we don't talk and even if we don't see eye to eye all the time. Y'all know if you need me and I can help, I will. #ΣΛΒ #SLB #VStateBetas #REnegadeBetas #REnegadeMade https://www.instagram.com/p/B-fZXeJACKV/?igshid=eizke72jpjbt

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March 28th. Opportunity for Wisdom. Rho Epsilon has been a chapter that's been full of leaders and heavy community involvement since the very beginning when we were just an interest group. Various community service outreaches, annual Walk a Mile events, a scholarship pageant, annual cultural dance event, assisting with the first ever TEDx at VSU event, plus our brothers' various involvements in orgs all over campus across multiple colleges and majors. Living the creed to the fullest. That's just what we do and will continue to do #UntilOmega #FoundersWeekPhotoChallenge #ΣΛΒ #WhySLB #REnegadeMade #RhoEpsilon #VStateBetas #REnegadeBetas https://www.instagram.com/p/B-Soqcdg9L1/?igshid=2nfemmgf3on0

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Congrats to the newest REnegade Stallions on the yard! And also shoutout to my kid on being a fantastic educator for them. The chapter is clearly in good hands. Proud founder and alum. #vstatebetas #renegadebetas #renegademade #ΣΛΒ #rhoepsilonbetas #rhoepsilon #renegaderhoepsilon https://www.instagram.com/p/B5NmwYZg0Bj/?igshid=1afmfjf9l3yjk

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Stop being afraid

These images are from a recent artist showcase in Portland, Oregon. I was invited to be apart of RAWartist, something that a lot of people have to put in an application for. So to have someone who works there find my work and then personally invite me to be a part of this show was beyond amazing. But then, the anxiety hit me hard. Was I really good enough to be in an artist showcase? What if I can’t do this? What if it’s a total flop? What if people are offended because they think I’m making something bad? (I’ve had a few experiences with people being angry at me because of what I make)

I am a rather anxious person, even though it may not seem that way. I would consider myself as someone with high functioning anxiety. I may seem calm and collected, but most of the time there’s this internal battle going on. I get extremely drained when it comes with talking to people and being in an environment where there’s a lot of people. I am one who could probably be content with living like a hermit (but with modern technology) in the middle of no where with my family. Human interaction really isn’t my strong suit.

But I realized that this showcase was something that I had to do. This was an opportunity that I couldn’t miss, this was something that I could not let my anxiety admit defeat to before even trying. For about a month I worked on getting ready for this art show. As deadlines grew closer so did that awful voice in my head, telling me that I shouldn’t do this, that I always quit. But I pushed back, I was going to do this, no matter how much fear I had about something that hadn’t happened yet. 

On the day of the show I had what I could only explain as numb anxiety. I don’t really know how to describe it, other than I felt like I had anxiety, but with no emotion. The doors opened at 7:00PM. There wasn’t that many people and I was wondering if this was going to be a flop. I had tried to have zero expectations, so that I couldn’t really be disappointed. But then the flood came. 

I was near the entrance of the venue, so I was one of the first artists to be seen. The response I got from people was very positive. So many gasps, people taking the time to look at everything on my table. My anxiety turned into something much different, it was pride. I was so proud that I had done this. While I did get some people who were scared or didn’t really like what I had on display, I found myself not letting it get to me. I actually found it quite amusing.

This show gave me renewed inspiration. It helped give me confidence. I really couldn’t believe that I did it. I did something that gave me so much fear and anxiety. It may be hard to believe how amazing that is for me. This is life changing for me. 

If this taught me anything, is that you cannot let your fear define you. You can’t use it as a crutch. Do not give up before you try! Most importantly, to fight for your dreams, to make them come true. In the wise words of Shia LaBeouf, “JUST DO IT. DON’T LET YOUR DREAMS BE DREAMS”.

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Even though I already have a huge vinyl banner, I thought that I needed something to put on the table. So I made this adorable little shadow box. 

It’s not too late to purchase your presale tickets either! http://www.rawartists.org/renegademade

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I cannot wait for this art show. I am so very nervous, but also very excited. Those who know me know that I’m not huge on social interaction and that I let my anxiety get in the way of me achieving my goals. So I decided to force myself to do something as big as this. This show is going to be loud, and crammed full of people. I will be meeting amazing people, fellow artists, and creating (hopefully) lasting friendships. It’s not too late to get presale tickets! Just follow my link below! http://www.rawartists.org/renegademade

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Not even half of what I’ll be needing for the art show. Purchase tickets here: http://www.rawartists.org/renegademade