today's feelings:
guilt, shame, fear
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today's feelings:
guilt, shame, fear
i sad
i cry
i read jaime and brienne fanfiction
i cry again
How I start studying:
After procrastinating for idk, about three hours, make a cup of coffee. Drink that reaaaal slow while procrastinating some more.
About an hour later, make another cup of coffee. Spray some rose water on your face and promise yourself that now you’re gonna turn all of this around.
Drink half of that cup of coffee while STILL procrastinating. Start panicking about how you haven’t done anything. This is also the step of bargaining; “surely you can do 6 hours worth of work in 2 hours if you really try, right? r i g h t??” Procrastinate some more in the false pretence of “calming yourself down”
That didn’t make you any more calm, now you’ve just watched memes and acquired acceptance towards the inevitable doom.
So here’s where things get interesting, ‘cause you have 2 ways this could go down:
1. Actually start studying, finally, yes you’re doing it. Why didn’t you start sooner oh god, you’re so behind on everything. o h n o
2. mental breakdown, the depth of it depends on the day. The level goes from “one single tear rolling slowly down your cheek” to “ugly crying on the floor cause you can’t get yourself up, you might also die, or at least that’s what you’re feeling”. From this, it’s either studying like 1 chapter which takes 4 hours or doing nothing for the rest of the day
(SECRET THIRD OPTION: give up)
The time shift, repeat daily.
open.spotify.com/episode/4oRkQdBwbfK5ioOrumzluC
Repeat daily:
I will remain focused on my goals. Even if I have a moment of difficulty, I will not give up. I know success comes with consistency. I know that I will make it. Things will get better. No problem or challenge will stop me. Everything I deserve is coming my way 🧿🤍🌱
*catches myself smiling at a baby video*
Me: Tangina. Ito nanaman tayo, gurl.
I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. Philippians 4:13