#reverse progress

[name-lyrics]

so i cut my hair today (barely) but it's straightened and no longer a curly mess (and it somehow looks good???) and tbh i feel like 2015 dan now.

[bboykiva]

I've seen art progress memes but is there a reverse art progress?

[tammys-path-to-the-black]

I've been MIA because I've been dreading this post. It's the post you're never supposed to write if you're blogging about getting out of debt... I got further into debt this month (technically I'm still $4 under where I was last month but I'm waiting for my Visa interest to hit so in the end it'll be up - and regardless my Visa card balance went up). It was planned, not an impulse purchase and it was for the renovations we did last month but didn't hit my card until this month. I could have paid it off all in one month but with J and M's birthday's this past week and I just stretched myself too thin. 

I'm pissed that I ended up breaking my one year of no-new-debt but at least it's happened at the end of the year so I get a fresh start with a new calendar (I've already revamped my budget and made new spreadsheets). I won't be hitting my goal for 2015; however I still have brought my debt under 30 grand and as a couple J and I killed it (recap - I track our debts separately and together but only talk about my own personal debt on here).

Usually when things go differently than planned I do one of two things. 1. I figure I've already screwed up, I might as well throw in the towel and make things worse. 2. I try so hard to make things better that I end up making things worse. So this time I will just continue on as normal. I could have taken the money to pay for this out of my savings account; however between that and Christmas shopping I'd have to start out 2016 with zero savings (number 2). Or I could have stopped writing on here and just gone back to my old ways (number 1).

Instead I decided to put on my big-girl pants and write this post. I'll be posting my November update later this week, but don't expect much.

[cryomorphsdk]

Osu! 私の小さな日記 1

“Watashi no chīsana nikki“ - My little diary, if this translation is wrong, fix me plox...

Basicaly, i feel tired, my hands are shaking, my brain is in emergency shut down state, my reaction time magicaly went back to less then zero. How come? I think, i overplayed last 4 days. It was hard 4 days of Osu nerding. I feel this, i slept almost nothing, i last 4 days from doing slow 1-1,5 star easy/normal maps i went up to 3-3.2 star ar6-8 hard (including some melodic Insane).

But shit git serious, very serious, in like one moment, i just lost all strenght in my hand (wielding pretty heavy Razer Naga 2014), lost reading ability in my eyes, i can only follow with “i feel this will go like that” and i am sad.

I cannot play this right now, i have hard time writing this becouse my both hands just hurt.

Any idea what could happend?

[psychovox]

Do you ever spend time with certain people and it feels like you're getting dumber