Update…sorta kinda not really. Just a venting kinda thing. Emotionally I feel really numb. Like I don’t know where I stand in this “friendship” . I’m not all that confident in expressing my feelings, which only hinders me. I know and understand that but I can’t shake it. I guess the biggest thing is that in the back of my mind, I know I’m not the only one. There’s other females and I feel like they’re more important than me. I don’t have a self esteem issue because I know that I can do better. I’m not unattractive, it’s just something keeping me at a standstill. Don’t get me wrong , I’m actively trying. I talk to other guys but I guess, subconsciously I’m still comparing them or I just don’t want to get in too deep and the person I actually want has a change of heart….
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