#ricebcll

[naru-uzumaki]

                               Take my [ h a n d ]

                                            and my heart and my ( soul )... 

                            because it was MEANT for you. 

( for @ricebcll )

[naru-uzumaki]

the sun set upon the day and the storms were already brewing on the horizon. If the choice was to keep her memories of their time together … and his life – there truly was only one option. it terrified her , what did their future interactions look like beyond that ? would he find happiness that she wished for him ? he has always been looking out for her , and now she had to do it – in the only way she knew how. heart flying and threatening to pound its way out of her chest, her eyes were trained forward – resilient and determined to see it through.

“i’m ready. “ the whisper left her lips as the anxiety ascended despite the certainty of her decision. . “ when you do this , you’ll leave him alone , right ?” this was her hail mary , and she planned to see it through. she only hoped that he’d find her letter that contained an explanation. a letter that made it clear that she had no choice but to say goodbye , in hopes that he’d find a way to forgive her, but she couldn’t sit by and do nothing when there was a way to ensure his safety. that she hoped he could find happiness , even if it couldn’t be with her. because she couldn’t say for certain … what their future would look like anymore.

her heart felt like it was suffocating , no matter how much she tried to justify that this is the right thing to do.

@ricebcll​ // original post

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      IT FELT LIKE THEIR LOVING BOND HAD BECOME INACCESSIBLE --- unprotected with each passing word read on a letter left behind. In his mind, none of it made sense --- a ( g o o d b y e ) he wasn’t ready to accept despite how absolute those written phrases sounded. If fear was a type of madness, his entire being was overwhelmed by it and all he could do was react through the chaos of his swirling thoughts. Courage had always been the forefront to any fear he felt, but everything to his core was focused on trying to stop this and finding her. Some may have called him s e l f i s h when he began on his path to find her, knowing that this was HER wish --- but he wouldn’t be able to live with himself if the woman that he loved left thinking that she was saving him from something! 

      With only resolve carrying him, he ran to the only place he could think of --- a place that had only been mentioned in passing conversations between the two. He never thought that he’d have to come here, a place of warning... ( a place where she wasn’t safe ). Every part of him hoped that she wasn’t there... that if he looked through the window of this one place that she wouldn’t be there... but...

                                 THERE SHE WAS... 

                                                     so [ still ]... 

                                              was he too late? 

                                                         He wasn’t going to accept it! 

                     ( he couldn’t )...

      Body became overwhelmed with an inexplainable desire to confirm that she was still all there, that he wasn’t too late --- that she still knew who he was and they can continue loving one another. Bursting through the entrance, the whiskered blond lunged forward and wrapped arms around her frame while he tried to find the breaths to formulate words.

                    HUFF... 

                               HUFF...

       ❝ --- I was looking everywhere for you! Tohru...❞

[naru-uzumaki]

@ricebcll​ liked this for a ramen bowl!

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       ❝Nande? Tohru? Why are you out here by yourself?❞

[bonescribes-a]

@ricebcll​ // sc.

“ it’s cold out , ” hums the doctor , sharp eyes sticking to tohru . his expression is stern -- but then , it always is. in truth , the only thing he feels at present is concern .

“ why aren’t you wearing a coat ? ”

[selflesstwin]

“  please don’t scare me like that again.  i can take a lot of things,  but not losing you.  ”

SOFT(ish) ANGST PROMPTS | @ricebcll

       Their hands rested on her shoulders once they were reunited again. Kaoru didn’t mean to worry her like that. It’s not like they were gone for too long. But, maybe they should have warned her about their little habit. Well, it wasn’t too late to apologize and explain. It would be a good heads up for next time.

       “ I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to disappear on you like that. ” Turning slightly so they could look behind them, Kaoru pointed towards a funny little mascot offering goodies to shoppers, “ I saw that and I really wanted to check it out. I tend to wander in new places. I promise that I won’t do it again. I’ll stay by your side. Promise. ” They would do their best, at least. 

[bonescribes-a]

@ricebcll​ // sc.

"  .  .  .  why  aren't  you  wearing  a  coat  ?  it's  cold  outside  .  "

[mewbell-moved]

@ricebcll​ asked :  “ my heart won’t stop beating… ”

                            ❝    I    KNOW    RIGHT    ?    MINE    EITHER    !    ❞    hand    was    pressed    to    chest    as    hey    stood    on    the    outskirts    of    the    school’s    haunted    house    .    her    knees    were    weak    .    how    was    she    still    standing    ?    ❝    who’s    idea    was    it    to    do    that    ?    ❞    it    was    the    last    thing    left    for    the    school    festival    .    they    hadn’t    thought    about    it    .    they    didn’t    like    scary    things    and    jump    scares    ---    but    the    students    worked    so    hard    to    put    it    on    !    they    would    have    felt    bad    !    yet    they    were    flinging    to    one    another    and    crying    the    entire    time    .

[hupfen]

" you know, you don't have to tell me anything. you don't owe me an explanation. but if you ever want to talk... i'm here. "

That, he does not know how to respond to.

It isn't that he doesn't want to talk — in truth, the offer means a lot to him. To have someone there who is willing to listen, to hear him out, to care...

But he doesn't know how. He does not want to make anyone else deal with his thoughts - So he runs away, somewhere far away from the Sohma household where nobody can see him break.

Tohru sits by his futon now he has returned after going missing. He had come home in his zodiac form ; he has returned to his human form now, and is laying with the blankets brought up to his chin.

“ Thank you, ” he says, plastering on a smile. “ but I'm alright. I'm home now, see ? It's okay. ”

“ You know you can talk to me, too... Right ? ”