#richard shoop

[deancravespie-blog]

Tonight I Sang A Song For You

I've been deliberating for weeks now, if I was going to sing it. Every time I hear it, I think of you. I think about all the times we hung out, all the times we listened to it, and for me, it's our song. And it's been a month since you've been gone. A month. It's not really hitting me. I mean, it is, but it isn't. I miss you so much, Rich. I miss your smile, I miss your laugh, I miss the twinkle that was always in your eyes. I sang, and I was scared. Because I knew I was going to cry. And at the line "And now you're gone, and I can't think straight", I lost it. But people were there to get me through it. Just like they were there to help me through losing you. And when the song was over, I sobbed. It's never going to fully hit me that you're actually really gone. I can't just get over it. I'm doing my best though, because I know that you'd kick my ass for crying. I love you, I miss you. 

Love always, 

Tejahne

[deancravespie-blog]

You know what pains and angers me?

The fact that we're just expected to get over this. Like, I don't know if anyone knows or realizes, but it hasn't even been 48 hours since everything's gone down. I just found out yesterday morning that I lost one of the people who at one point meant the most to me in this world. Rich meant a lot to all of us. We have a right to be hurt. We have a right to be pissed. We have a right to have questions. We have a fucking right to mourn. People are judging him and saying all of this shit. We are allowed to be angry. We're going to defend his honor.

I work at GSP, and the things I heard today....it literally broke my heart. So much so, that I ended up breaking down and having to leave work early. I need this to reach people so they can understand that Richard Ryan Shoop was one of the greatest friends I've ever had. He was passionate, understanding, caring, sweet, generous, genuine, hilarious, rebellious, and a total badass. He had a breathtakingly warm smile, one that you instantly smiled back at, because it made you feel safe. He always cared about how everyone else was doing. He was the sweetest guy I've ever known. 

So many people are hurt by his passing, and so many people, myself included, aren't just going to be able to "get over it" or "stop being mad at the world" when it hasn't even been two full days yet. Let us grieve, let us mourn, let us work on becoming ourselves again in our own time.

I haven't been the same since Monday. Everyone tells me I even look different. It's because I know I won't see him again. I know that he broke his pinky promise of us hanging out soon. He never once broke a pinky promise to me. 

I wish I was one of those people he talked to that night, when he was saying that he wasn't going to hurt anyone. Because I would have known his voice. And I would have tried my damndest to stop him. To talk to him. To listen to him. All he wanted was someone to listen. But now that they're listening, it's too late.

I have this one memory sticking out in my head, every night now. It was like 10pm, and I was in Florida for the summer. And every night that summer, me and Rich would be IMing on AIM. And every night, like clockwork, he'd sign on, and he would IM me. And we would talk about everything and anything. And every night, we wouldn't go to sleep until like 3,4 am. And on this particular night, I just remember him just venting about a lot of stuff, and us just talking about things and me giving him advice. And at the end of it all, he took a second, and went "Thanks, Tejh. This really meant a lot to me." And I felt happy that for once, I helped him out, instead of the other way around.

I love you, Rich. Always have, always will. We know how good of a guy you are. And we're gonna make sure everyone else knows as well. Rest in peace.

[gamerkitten]

I don't think I can do this anymore

Last night may have been the worst day of my life so far. You here about things like this happening and you think "man that's awful" and then you feel sad for ten minutes and move on with you life. Because that person is a stranger, someone you never knew and never would. If anything, you watch the news coverage out of morbid curiosity. Sandy Hook, Littleton....they're just places where crazy shit happens. You don't know what those people are going through and you can't imagine it.

After last night, I know exactly what that feels like. Too find out something so terrifying is happening in a place where you practically spent every weekend, to know your friends or people you know may be inside. And then, when its all over, you find out who is responsible. You find out that it's someone you've known since the fifth grade, someone you used to joke around with in class, who's smile made your knees turn to jelly for about half of seventh grade. Someone who, only a few months ago, you were laughing with and talking about tattoos. 

Relief washes over you when you find out that no one got hurt, and you wonder why in the name of god they would do something so stupid. You are angry.

And then, while looking through your newsfeed you see those words, RIP Shoop, and it takes you a moment to process what you're reading. Because he can't be gone. It simply is not possible. But then you realize, after scrolling for a few more minutes, that it's true and the world fades to black and white before crashing down around you.

You do what you always do when something like this goes down, but this time it isn't because you are curious. This time it is out of desperation to make sense of what is going on, to understand why. But the picture being painted leaves you even more confused, the colors coming together to show the face of someone you never knew. This is not the same person at all. You rant at the computer, correcting everything that they got wrong. The comments section replaces confusion with rage, people hiding behind their computer screens throwing around words like "Crazy", "Lunatic", "Monster". They are using the death of your friend to advocate Gun control, some voice their joy over his demise. You make a profile on three different news sites just to tear them a new one. This makes you feel a little better.

In your hometown, everyone comes together to remember the guy that you all knew. The one with the contagious smile and awesome skateboard  tricks, who cracked jokes in class. These are the ones who knew him, and they remember who he is. You smile in spite of the sadness, and even end up getting in touch with people you haven't spoken to in years. You go to bed, some what at peace.

Then you wake up and realize it wasn't a dream, that you have to deal with this on your own because the only people who understand are miles and miles away. 

This is my new reality, and I really don't know how to deal with it. I'm terrified and I guess I just need someone who gets what I'm going through. Otherwise, I think I might not make it through this.

[madnessandhoney]

he was a fucking psycho drug dealer not some charity case

Considering I know that anyone who had more than a 5 minute interaction with Rich would never say that, I’d ask that you kindly unplug your head from media and get the hell away from my inbox. He was a kid who needed help. A sweet, genuine, funny kid who spent most of his time at a pizza shop. He’s a household name in our town, he was a brother and a son from an amazing family and regardless of the perceived danger in last night’s situation, Rich only went into that mall to hurt himself. May he rest in peace despite the media’s foul attempts to produce other results.

We knew Shoop, we saw Shoop, and we remember Shoop for who he was.

Teaneck strong.

[jornalmontesclaros]

EUA - Homem que disparou tiros em shopping é encontrado morto

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EUA - Homem que disparou tiros em shopping é encontrado morto

[chreative]

Assumptions

Found out that the shooter at GSP in NJ was somebody I knew smh in my ignorance I was so quick to call who ever was shooting maniac in my last post ..... he wasn't even trying to hurt anybody just himself