Come to see me once in a while
In a memory of Singha 1984-2015
I decided to come up with a little different topic today. In my musical lessons in life, I've learned how to heal myself from pain through music. I've faced many and many of the pain. Some caused by others and some caused by me, myself.
It was a normal Wednesday, back on 29 July. Then one of my favorite guitarists named Singha committed a suicide..
I literally had nothing to say. It was.. speechless. I had the constantly sob held in my neck waiting to be exploded.
He was diagnosed with the MDD, Mejor Depressive Disorder before he decided to end his life by jumping off his condo.
Major depressive disorder (MDD)—also known as unipolar depression or simply major depression—is a serious clinical mood disorder in which feelings of sadness, frustration, loss, or anger interfere with a person's everyday life for weeks or months at a time. People with MDD are more likely to use alcohol or illegal substances than others, are at increased risk for other mental and physical health problems, and are at a much greater risk for suicide than the general population.
(Sourced from here)
Along my lifetime experience in music, Singha's music have always been one of my inspirational music that I really want to be able to play it like him.It seemed like everything was falling apart from where it belonged. I was just scrolling down my Instagram updates. and that was what I found? I was thinking to myself, " Could it be that this is only a nightmares?" But no. It was real.
I know how life is going to get f*cked up sometimes. and it is likely to happen when your life is just doing great, then something comes up to ruin it.
I considered myself very lucky that I know how to deal with pains. For me, personally, I’m glad that music can always get me through any obstacles I have in life. I believe that music heals up my wounds like something else can never do.
Unfortunately, Singha didn’t make it through.
When we are having a literally a shitty time in life, I think we all know how to cope with it. But the one who can actually get it through are those who are ready to move on. We all know what to do when our hearts are broken. The reason why we are still desperate and keep saying " I really can't get through this " is because we ain't ready to let things go. Believe me we all do know what to do. Just to wait for a time we are strong enough to let go.
We would know how strong we are until being strong is the only choice we have left.
From now on, all my music intentions and dedications will go to you. You will always be in my prayers. Now that my heart is broken from the loss, I’m sure that your music will heal up my broken pieces and put it all back into places.
Please,
Come to see me once for a while.
RETURN
IF
POSSIBLE
