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[rkyeji]

#5011 & interview  mentioned: @rkkyungsoo, @rkchaeryeong, @rktaeyang, @rkxbin, @rkbclla, @hyojinrk @rkheejin, @rkjeongin, @rksuwoong, @rkchwev, @ryujinrk​

it felt unbelievable to her that she was once again sitting in this situation-- being interviewed like this while waiting for the results. she felt blessed to be in this positon, as she sat down she had no idea what kind of questions they could ask but the had a feeling still-- when the staff member opened their mouth, the first question had her looking conflicted.

what did you think of the results last week?

“last week,” her eyes shifted as she remembered how jeongin had gotten eliminated, “i was filled with many different emotions, jeongin got eliminated but me and daniel oppa made it, so i was happy and sad at the same time,” yeji nodded slowly, “i feel blessed ot be in this position again-- but seing eliminations happen, was hard regardless of how close i was with everyone.”

who do you think is the best under each skill?

after yeji had managed to gather her emotions from the previous question she lifted her gaze and listened to the interviewer, “the best? under each skill?” yeji’s eyes widened, this could be a controversial topic-- “oh, i think that lee chaeryeong’s dancing ability is really good, i was impressed and she’s so young too. so i think her for the girls, for the males-- isn’t taeyang oppa impressive? his choreos are so good, i had to pick my jaw up from the floor.” yeji chuckled and smiled-- call her biased but to her, out of the boys taeyang was the best dancer. “for rappers-- i have to mention changbin oppa-- he’s so confident when he raps and he has a lot of swag, doesn’t he?” yeji did want to mention hansol as well-- but she didn’t want to give anyone the opportunity to connect them. he was so happy about going through-- having a goal, yeji didn’t want to be an obstacle, “for the females... choi yoona? her rap was really powerful? i didn’t thinkt that a girl could have that aura while rapping, honestly.” yeji grabbed her chin between her index finger and thumb, thinking about who to pick for vocals-- “there are so many good vocals, ahhh... i think jeon heejin’s voice and yuri’s voice, they are nice, hyojin and kyungsoo for the males for sure.”

were there any performances you liked?

yeji felt like she had talked for a long time already when talking about who she thought were best under each skill, now she got to talk about the performances she liked-- “well, let me talk to you about kyungsoo’s performance of toxic-- i didn’t know i needed that until he sang it and his voice. so good,” yeji nodded excitedly, “also-- taeyang oppa, of course-- i should stop talking about him already i know but-- have you seen him dance? his performance this time was good, all around the world good!” yeji pondered for a couple of more seconds, “also yuri’s performance-- i’m glad i bugged her about applying, her voice is really out here like that.”

there was a moment of silence before she suddenly opened her mouth again before the next question could pop out, "ryujinnie's performance, it was really charming and different from what she usually does. its nice to see her challenge herself like that.”

is there anyone that disappointed you today?

it was another sensitive topic-- yeji had made a couple of notes to herself and well, “the one that danced to psy’s daddy-- suwoong ssi? i liked his performance but-- having fun is important but he isn’t showing how good he is. he’s showing how much fun he has? i wonder if he can dance or if he is taking it as a joke,” yeji felt pensive thinking about it, “i wish he had shown his serious side, the other contestants are taking this seriously after all.” 

[rkyeji]

                              hwang yeji & the interview mentioned ; @rktaeyang, @rkyuri, @rkchwev, @ryujinrk, @danielxrk, @rkjeongin, @rksuwoong, @rkkhg, @rkkyg, @rkchoutzuyu

an interview portion, it would be a nice way to pass the time while the judges made the important decision of who to send through to the next round and who would stay. yeji hoped her friends would make it and herself of course but so far– at least she tried out for the mgas this year, last year she was a by stander and she couldn’t even watch it.

when it was her time she walked into the room, smiling nervously at the staff that was there– wondering what kind of questions they would give her– yeji sat down, her lips trembling a little as she rested her against the back of the chair.

“how did you feel when you recieved the news of the callback?”

yeji remebered the feeling– “i was excited i felt stressed becuse i had to come up with another dance routine in a short amount of time,” she nodded, “i think it turned out alright in the end– i had a lot of fun dancing in front of the five judges– ceos.”

“what did you think when they were revealed?”

it was a natural question to follow up after she mentioned them first, “first of all i was stunned because its my first time seeing them– then second i thought both ms. katie lee and baek jiyoung were amazing, two women in the middle of these men– katie lee is as pretty as the pictures and hyun bin is as handsome as ever? how is that even possible?”

“any performances you liked today? who do you think will go through to next phase?”

it was impossible for her to pick just one and she hoped that wasn’t what they expected her to do, “yoo taeyang– he dances so well, how could he not go through? also jo yuri, her voice is so fresh and nice to listen too, she shines when she’s on stage.” yeji smile slightly, “there is also uh, this rapper– his name was chwe hansol… sshi? he looked like he was made for stage as well and his rap was better than i expected,” yeji wans’t lying– she knew he suited the spotlight form his past but she had never really heard or seen him rap. it made the older male even more charming and during his performance she simply couldn’t keep her eyes off him, shamelessly staring– “also doesn’t he look like that american actor?? leonardo dicaprio– i think the judges are gonna pick him for sure.” yeji thought for a couple more seconds– “then there is ryujinnie~ she’s my friend and i know she is a good dancer and pretty, so why woudln’t they want her as well.”

“you are related to kang daniel and yang jeongin, how did you think their performances went?”

upuntil now it had just felt like they had generic questions but when they suddenly asked about her cousins she wrinkled her nose– “ah jeonginnie and daniel oppa? i think daniel oppa showed an improved version of himself, from last year– i hope he makes it and as for jeongin, he’s a good singer and i think they would regret it if they didn’t let him through.”

“what about you and your performance?”

yeji hesitated for a little, “i don’t want to toot my own horn but i think i did well– there were so many talented people here today so i don’t think i did better–” yeji knew she was one of the more powerful dancers, after watching everyone, she knew but it wasn’t something she wanted to say outloud– “i hope the judges see something in me, if i get through i’ll show them even more.”

“is there a contestant that caught your attention?”

with all her heart she wanted to mention hansol again-- but she stopped herself, instead she thought about it thoroughly, “i think... what was his name... uh, the one that performed a trot version of lc9′s ring ding dong-- his performance was different, so it caught my attention. also i liked the performances of yugyeom ssi and kang hyunggyu ssi, they danced really well. also jeong heejin ssi’s performance struck me, her voice was surprisingly soothing. not to mention she’s beautiful?” yeji nodded slowly, “oh and tzuyu un... ssi,” correcting herself before continuing, “was really ethereal when she performed, the song suited her.”

when she finished the interview portion she walked out-- sighing softly as she realized she could have mentioned so many more but there were so many performances, the recornding had been going on for hours already and she could barley rememeber the earliest ones. yeji walked to find her seat again-- her feat tapping with nervous excitement.

[rkyeji]

& her performance: dance ( 0:00 - 2:00 ) / outfit

"hwang yeji.”

when her name got called it felt like the room went silent-- yeji coudln’t hear anything but the sound of her shoes walking onto the stage, she was sure a female voice had called her onto the stage-- but if it was katie lee or baek jiyoung, she couldn’t tell, her heart felt like it was beating out of her chest. with nerves and excitement she stood at the center of the stage, looking straight at the judges, the corners of her lips lifted slightly as she smiles widely at them.

yeji remembered when she read the mail from mnet, saying that she had made it through and she couldn’t contain her excitement-- yeji had been even more excited when she learned that her frienda and family, especially jeongin, had made it through as well. yeji origianlly thorugh she had to pull the younger out of bed but he had been ready, stressed-- but ready and yeji couldn’t help it but she felt a sense of pride when she watched him.

her hair is pulled back in a pony, as usual and makeup simple, “i am hwang yeji, 19 years-- and i’ll be dancing. thank you for your time,” she bowes at them as she finishes.

yeji glanced around the stage, mentally measuring where she can and wont go properly-- she inhales deeply, she nodded at the staff-- telling the staff she was ready for her performance-- the music started and beyonce’s iconic line from partition started.

driver roll up the partition please

yeji lifted her gaze and the smile from earlier was gone, she wanted to channel the confidence that beyonce has when she performs-- when the line is repeated yeji starts walking forward slightly, her moves are sharp and fluid. every thing she does matches the beat.

performing always made yeji excited, this was no exception-- she had a confident smile on her lips as she danced infront of the judges and rest of the contestants. 

'take all of me’ yeji slowed down her dancing, tilting her head slightly-- her gaze moving from the judges and to the crowd until her eyes landed on hansol, ‘the kind of girl you like, is right here with me,’ yeji started moving further back on the stage, while her hand brushed her hair down-- grabbing onto the base of her ponytail before she dragged her fingers through it, flirtatiously as she pointed to herself, her eyes moved from the male and to multiple others in the crowd as well before they laded on the judges.

yeji stopped as she was almost at the edge of the stage, there she struck poses to the snapping in the track, her body making every movement look graceful and powerful. the beat picked up and yeji danced while walking to the front of the stage, her head snapping, with every move she made her ponytail flipped in the back of her head but it was a part of her routine. as everything else that she did while dancing.

it was coming to an end, her body popped at the right moments and when it was over, she stood still. exhaling properly, she takes a couple of seconds, gathering herself before taking the microphone again-- “thank you for your time,” she commented with an innocent smile the attitude from when she was dancing seemingly gone.

lastly she bowed multiple times, at the judges and at the other contestants. when she walked off the stage she raised her fists, mouting ‘hwaiting’ at one of the cameras.

the wave of relief hit her when she found her seat again, smiling happily-- she felt a sense of pride come over her, she had just done that.

given it her best go, now she couldn’t help but be curious about how the results would be.

[rkyeji]

♪ playlist - not meant to be // @rkchwev​

yes i know it is shocking, even i, sometimes feel a sense of heartbreak. especially lately i don’t want to go into details about why that is. all of these songs are songs that i listen to when i feel a sense of heartbreak, when thinking about someone especially. i am sure it will pass eventually-- instead of crying these are songs that calm me down. though, sometimes i cry while listening. it’s uncontrollable really // delted //. i wish we could control who we get feelings for-- it would make everything so much easier.

                                 chasing pavements

                            should I give up      or should I just keep chasing pavements?                                             even if it leads nowhere

it would be so much easier if i could just give up-- it isn’t that easy, even if i try-- trust me i have tried to forget my feelings but then he calls me... i hear his voice and i see his face. suddenly i’m right back where i started.

                                                      the one that got away

              in another life, I would be your girl                               we keep all our promises, be us against the world                                     in another life, I would make you stay              so I don't have to say you were the one that got away                                            the one that got away

i wonder, maybe if it was another life... would things be different? if we had met under different circumstances-- or if we had different backstories. happier ones, would things be different? if he asked me i wouldn’t hesitate for a second-- but not in this life time, so in another life... i’m sure i’d be his girl. though it feels like i’m his even now, like he has an invisible grasp on me.

                                  no doubt

                                 don't speak                                              i know what you're thinking                    i don't need your reasons                           don't tell me cause it hurts

i don’t confess because i don’t want to be rejected-- i don’t want to ruin anything for something that might be. i don’t need to hear his reasons, it hurts more than enough that i already know what he is thinking.

                                                 heart wants what it wants 

                                       there's a million reasons why I should give you up                   but the heart wants what it wants                           the heart wants what it wants

even through it all, there are so many reason i should give up.. i just can’t bring myself too, we have too much history, i’ve known him for too long. the way he smiles when its good between us is too good to give up-- even if he doesn’t see me as anything more than a friend, staying by his side and being there for him through his ups and downs. does that make me a masochist?

                                                  youknowbetter 

                              i just didn’t want to lose you                                               i hope this will not happen next                     i was wrong again                                   why I had to let go of you                                                             you know it better

i’ve tried to let him go, really, maybe if my heart had been more open to it it could change but then i’d lose him completely. i let him go briefly but i went straight back to him as well-- he never knew, nor will he never know the turmoil that is inside my heart when i think of him.

                                              you, clouds, rain 

                                       i hide under an umbrella                                               and pass by your house                        because i wanted to feel                                         the emotions of the old days again

oppa, can we never return to that time? when things were not so complicated between us? back when it was just me and you, watching the stars in seattle? late at night? it weighs on my chest-- it is so heavy, our sweet memories-- i don’t want them to be tainted by our arguing now. how can we make it stop?

                                                           breathe

                                    someone’s breath. that heavy breath                                                     how can I see through that?                        though I can’t understand your breath                                               it’s alright i’ll hold you

when you sigh, i wonder, what is making you sigh? is it something you are thinking about? is it me... again? or is it something else entierly? i’ll hold you so please, talk to me.

                                                 we don’t talk anymore 

                                   don't wanna know                                         if you're looking into her eyes                       if she's holding onto you so tight the way I did before                                                   ioverdosed                   should've known your love was a game                                                        now I can't get you out of my brain                               oh, it's such a shame

yeji is petty, whenever he brings around another girl-- even though there hasn’t been many the ones she has met. yeji wonders why-- recently she avoided him for a while but she wanated to talk to him, wondered what the other girls had that she didn’t have.

                                                            erased 

                                                i secretly walked behind you                                                                   as your turned back grew darker                                              the farther you got,                                                              i thought of you more                                        without even knowing, why, I keep missing you, bye  

when she was younger being with him was pure and innocent, he gave attention to her but as they got older yeji wondered, when it changed-- the way they looked at each other, the way she looked at him. she found herself thinking of him, the more she thought, the futher away he seemed to drift from her and she missed having him by her side... 

                                                             now 

                                     come to me now, talk to me                                                  we don’t have a tomorrow                                  don’t hesitate                                                  before it’s too late now                                         don’t push me                                further and further away                                                  us two, right here, right now                                         before it disappears

one thing she wishes more than anything, is for him to talk to her-- he tries to avoid the serious things but she wants him to talk to her about everything. yeji knows hansol and she knows that he has many deep thoughts, dark even, about himself but she is sure she would shoulder them all for him if he gave her the change.