♪ playlist - not meant to be // @rkchwev
yes i know it is shocking, even i, sometimes feel a sense of heartbreak. especially lately i don’t want to go into details about why that is. all of these songs are songs that i listen to when i feel a sense of heartbreak, when thinking about someone especially. i am sure it will pass eventually-- instead of crying these are songs that calm me down. though, sometimes i cry while listening. it’s uncontrollable really // delted //. i wish we could control who we get feelings for-- it would make everything so much easier.
chasing pavements
should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements? even if it leads nowhere
it would be so much easier if i could just give up-- it isn’t that easy, even if i try-- trust me i have tried to forget my feelings but then he calls me... i hear his voice and i see his face. suddenly i’m right back where i started.
the one that got away
in another life, I would be your girl we keep all our promises, be us against the world in another life, I would make you stay so I don't have to say you were the one that got away the one that got away
i wonder, maybe if it was another life... would things be different? if we had met under different circumstances-- or if we had different backstories. happier ones, would things be different? if he asked me i wouldn’t hesitate for a second-- but not in this life time, so in another life... i’m sure i’d be his girl. though it feels like i’m his even now, like he has an invisible grasp on me.
no doubt
don't speak i know what you're thinking i don't need your reasons don't tell me cause it hurts
i don’t confess because i don’t want to be rejected-- i don’t want to ruin anything for something that might be. i don’t need to hear his reasons, it hurts more than enough that i already know what he is thinking.
heart wants what it wants
there's a million reasons why I should give you up but the heart wants what it wants the heart wants what it wants
even through it all, there are so many reason i should give up.. i just can’t bring myself too, we have too much history, i’ve known him for too long. the way he smiles when its good between us is too good to give up-- even if he doesn’t see me as anything more than a friend, staying by his side and being there for him through his ups and downs. does that make me a masochist?
youknowbetter
i just didn’t want to lose you i hope this will not happen next i was wrong again why I had to let go of you you know it better
i’ve tried to let him go, really, maybe if my heart had been more open to it it could change but then i’d lose him completely. i let him go briefly but i went straight back to him as well-- he never knew, nor will he never know the turmoil that is inside my heart when i think of him.
you, clouds, rain
i hide under an umbrella and pass by your house because i wanted to feel the emotions of the old days again
oppa, can we never return to that time? when things were not so complicated between us? back when it was just me and you, watching the stars in seattle? late at night? it weighs on my chest-- it is so heavy, our sweet memories-- i don’t want them to be tainted by our arguing now. how can we make it stop?
breathe
someone’s breath. that heavy breath how can I see through that? though I can’t understand your breath it’s alright i’ll hold you
when you sigh, i wonder, what is making you sigh? is it something you are thinking about? is it me... again? or is it something else entierly? i’ll hold you so please, talk to me.
we don’t talk anymore
don't wanna know if you're looking into her eyes if she's holding onto you so tight the way I did before ioverdosed should've known your love was a game now I can't get you out of my brain oh, it's such a shame
yeji is petty, whenever he brings around another girl-- even though there hasn’t been many the ones she has met. yeji wonders why-- recently she avoided him for a while but she wanated to talk to him, wondered what the other girls had that she didn’t have.
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i secretly walked behind you as your turned back grew darker the farther you got, i thought of you more without even knowing, why, I keep missing you, bye
when she was younger being with him was pure and innocent, he gave attention to her but as they got older yeji wondered, when it changed-- the way they looked at each other, the way she looked at him. she found herself thinking of him, the more she thought, the futher away he seemed to drift from her and she missed having him by her side...
now
come to me now, talk to me we don’t have a tomorrow don’t hesitate before it’s too late now don’t push me further and further away us two, right here, right now before it disappears
one thing she wishes more than anything, is for him to talk to her-- he tries to avoid the serious things but she wants him to talk to her about everything. yeji knows hansol and she knows that he has many deep thoughts, dark even, about himself but she is sure she would shoulder them all for him if he gave her the change.
