Tonight You sat with me in the hallway as I cried in frustration. I mentioned that although today was truly wonderful (it really was) I don’t want to give the girls (or me) false hope, making us think the worst has passed and that we’re a happy family again…just for you to leave us. Offering to buy us year passes to the amusement park we went to today, knowing good and damn well you’d be sending us on our way in a few weeks anyways. You said you weren’t looking at it like that, because in your eyes, we were staying. Then you agreed how this could hurt us though, you said you understood. You said those feelings that you have for that person would pass. You made me feel like we were going to work on this.
Then a little bit later, I told you I needed you to delete her number. You said you couldn’t because then her messages and stuff would flow in, so it has to stay in your phone so she can remain blocked. I said that sounds suspicious, like, you leave her blocked until you’re alone and let the influx of messages come in then. then I asked to see her name. There you continued to protect her. You didn’t protect us! She knows my name, she knows my kids names…. but you wanna but up a fight disclosing her info? you want to protect her info from me?! Anddddd that triggered me. Then I fought until I could see the name. You hated that of course.
We argued and long story short when we calmed down, I asked how you expected me to trust that you really wanna make this work when you’re still protecting her. & then you broke my heart yet again. You laughed and said “when did I say I wanted to stay with you?” 😞😞😞 and just like that, you put me right back on the rollercoaster from hell.