She already knew that it was time for her to move on, to think outside of the box, go into the free world and start following her dream. After leaving her former Company she wasn’t feeling ready to come back to this state, the state of a trainee, ever. Now after she produced songs herself and saw other fellow trainees work hard, she missed it. She really missed it. Still... It wasn’t easy to accept the fact, that this industry was still built on less freedom, than the fans thought they had. Did they actually still think that?
The past tragedys had shown her, that the industry was still hard and even after success you could never know if your heart would be the same. She wanted to be herself, not belonging to a company, to a contract with her soul, heart and mind. That was not what she had been born for, she knew it! Thats why Jessis Song always were over self reflection, self respect, self love. I’m saying what I want and what I need to say! Still if she wanted to return to the big stage and the big chances, she didn’t know if people would take her because of that. Unfortunately the cute, little image she saw in a lot of girl groups wouldn’t fit her at all. She had to grin over the thought.
Jessi was a woman, not a doll. She needed a plan, a good plan, that the kpop industry could she that she was indeed still a gem. Even if she had different sights on certain events. It was a change and change could be good. Maybe she had already started to go out there in the moment, that she decided to release her music openly and spread it over social media.
Freedom. If she really would go back not a company she wasn’t allowed to use certain thing and probably to end things with her hubby. Honestly? There were already Idols openly dating, so whats with all the stuff? She wanted to be herself, but she wanted to be an Idol too, to help other fellows, to understand the meaning of freedom.
Now she only had to find a company that respected that.
“I needed a drink of water after my shower but I forgot that I opened the blinds to my balcony and you just saw me walk into my kitchen naked.“
It had been a casual day, nothing much of interest had happened. Jessi turned around in her friends chair and suckled at her straw. Her milkshake waving in hand she stared at the furniture and thought once again, damn this boy needs a girlfriend and much better taste! Her eyes met her watch and she rolled her eyes. And a better time management, too! Maybe an organizational list or something? So he won’t forget everything all the time, and she hadn’t had to wait... Her eyes switched over to the window, it was a nice weather outside and the house was so close to the street, that you could actually see over- huh?
She entangled her legs, stood up, walked over to the window and laid a hand on the frame. My my, would you look at that. She suckled at her straw, put her sunglasses a little bit down and looked closer. The very handsome neighbor just had walked over to his kitchen and now stood casually naked there to drink a sip of water. My my, interesting. Thats when she met his eye and ordinary waved her hands in his direction with a bright smile. Taken woman or not, this sight was for free.
