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An Inventory of Who I Am

I was chilling and thinking about my life, because, you know, that happens every so often to everybody. So naturally, my mind goes over all the different "phases" of who I've been and starts to label them. And ('cause fuck it) I typed them out. 

I guess this list is kind of like a life table of contents (I did order them chronologically, though they could overlap); who I ended up being at that point in my life as a result of my experiences and the type of personality that took precedence. 

An Inventory 

1. The Newborn

2. The Angry Toddler

3. The Naughty Crazy Happy Kid

4. The Smelly Ten Year Old

5. The Punching Bag

6. The Smart One

7. The Pathological Liar

8. The Cut Cutthroat Cutter

9. The Lonely Girl

10. The Straight-A Sad Girl

11. The Freedom Fighter

12. The One Filled With Hatred, Sadness, and Rage

13. The Heartbroken Fat Starving Girl

14. The Empty Vessel

15. The Damaged Goods

16. The Maybe I'm a Normal Person

17. The Hopeful Bulimic

18. The Psych Ward Beauty

19. The Courageous One

20. The Rehab Drop Out

21. The One With Friends

22. The Misguided Sex Pot

23. The Honeymooner

24. The Half of a Whole Hot Mess

25. The Party Whore

26. The Broken-Hearted Bad Bitch

27. The Singer Stoner

28. The Lost Pregnant Worker Bee

29. The One Who Is Loved From The Inside Out

30. The Young Mother

The numbers don't correspond to specific years in my life (i.e. I'm not 30 years old), they just take note of each phase or personality as they popped up or made themselves apparent.

Go ahead. Think about your life and all the people you've been and make a list of your own. I'd love to try and imagine what was going on in your life, I'd love to picture all the people you could possibly be.  

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I Was Already Waiting For You

I lived like a gangster

I didn't care what I did

I made my paper

I smoked my weed

I drank until I couldn't see straight

I fucked whenever I wanted

All day, every day

I was a ride or die bitch

I was an unconquerable soul on a sinking ship

I was high on the now

I was addicted to never

Eight months have passed

I haven't touched a thing

And I never dreamed I could see so far

You excite my imagination

You challenge my thoughts

You stopped me in my tracks

And turned my world around

I thought I knew love

But all this time it was a narrow gap

A flawed perspective

A selfish act

You made me brave 

You gave and you took away

You reminded me of infinite possibilities

You saved my life

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Little Life

Hello, little life.

Little movements, little dreams.

Little hands, little feet.

Little kindness, little cruelty.

All you'll know is what I give you.

Until you know everything I'm not.

Little life, little girl, my little love.