#roses.ramblings

[haunting-roses]

“you know i’m not one for praying, ‘cause in my book it’s… it’s the same as begging” and yet he had prayed to cas every night while searching for him in purgatory………. im gonna be SICK

[haunting-roses]

being in love with dean winchester is accepting that he’s in love with a silly angel. but it’s okay because i love that silly angel too let’s all hold hands

[haunting-roses]

reading john’s journal truly feels like a special kind of torture cause what do you mean you saw your SIX YEAR OLD try and comfort you and thought that meant he was ready to start handling guns.

[haunting-roses]

sometimes i find myself feeling upset over watching dean explain away things john did to sam (like in bad boys, insisting it wasn’t john’s fault for him ending up where he did) before realizing ive done the Exact same thing many times before. it just became natural after a point, to take the blame away from whoever is hurting you, to insist that surely you had to have been in the wrong because why else would you have ended up in that situation

if there’s anything ill applaud the spn writing for, it is that. because it really does make it feel more… real. i feel it really brings more life to the characters, to what theyre put through

[haunting-roses]

just finished watching project hail mary i am . so emotional

[haunting-roses]

i may perhaps be procrastinating heavily with finishing supernatural … so what …

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i don’t think i’ll ever truly get over how INSANE it was to look at GOD in the face and tell him “we’re making the story up as we go” like thats. so insane

even without them even knowing they were talking to god, its just so. augh.

[haunting-roses]

once more thinking abt connecting dean to twenty one pilots songs. drum show immediately feels Obvious but downstairs also feels like it can suit him… cottonwood… tally… backslide, vignette, snap back…