Oct 21, 2020
It is entirely demoralizing how often “those kinds of people” swarm videos I am in and downvote it, spam hate, or make micro aggressive comments.
And by “how often” ... I mean every single video.
Worse even is the fact that I want to be angry over it, but the hate has beaten me down so much that my only response is to feel overwhelmingly exhausted by it all.
I do not hold myself in high regard at all, quite the opposite actually. I am my harshest legitimate critic.
But even so, I do also know how hard I work, how much of my soul I pour into everything I do, and to the lengths of which I will go to make things better.
And yet the hate I receive constantly outweighs any accomplishments.
My shoulders are heavy and I am tired.