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[parowanormal]

what's in my bag (accurate to real life)

[hoodiegf]

everyday i think abt bicon megumi and his line abt his father naming him megumi w no regards to his gender

[bisexualriza]

constant state of mind

[bisexualriza]

my brain was having thoughts again

my mind is currently fixating on royai kid unhealthily.....i always thought the concept was really cute but unrealistic (which adds to the appeal) and i like mom!Riza. a lot. Roy's there too ig. ive written a LITTLE about royai kid but here's my first time being inspired enough to actually draw out my ideas/concepts

behold my vision. probably not original by any means but i like when the kid is like a mini version of the parent whose personality they take after. if they have a daughter, she'd be like Roy with a touch of Riza. if they had a son, he'd be like Riza with a touch of Roy, and so on, and i tried to convey that visually. i usually dont write them with multiple kids at once but if i had to they would definitely cap at two, with the daughter usually being the oldest ^^

anyways those r my thoughts + silly lazy artwork. hopefully ill get inspired enough to make more (or even finish a fic about them hehe)

[parowanormal]

hot girl summer is over. it's time for final girl fall

[bisexualriza]

"You…don't really know how to ballroom dance, do you, Mr Mustang?" He stuttered in his step, losing the rhythm he never really had to begin with, which probably emphasized her words. "Ah…I may be out of practice." He chuckled nervously. "I wasn't…professionally trained, if that's what you're asking." At her silence, he glanced back down at her mahogany eyes and found that she was gazing up at him skeptically. It was a familiar gaze, searching and scrutinizing. Trying to read him. "You seem surprised," he noted in a low voice.

aka some au stuff....sorta

[bisexualriza]

we know that Berthold was a pretty shitty father to Riza, and we know it's all because of his alchemy research. but because i'm currently in a pre-canon headspace, i've been speculating reasons for his neglect outside of just his obsession for alchemy.

incomprehensible brainrot below.

what if he straight up did not want a daughter. maybe he wanted a son instead, and his wife passed away before they could try for another child. it would partially explain why he showed more favor to Roy during his apprenticeship; Roy was the son he never had.

sexism aside, that can even be simplified to Berthold wanting a child who can perform alchemy. we don't know if Riza never showed an interest in it, or just wasnt able to grasp it, but she definitely isn't an alchemist in canon. (however. fanon secret alchemist Riza, i love u) it also explains his favoritism towards Roy as the prodigy child alchemist he also never had.

hell it could be a combination of both. Riza just wasnt good enough for him :(

on some darker notes, what if he didn't like Riza because, in however many ways, she reminded him of his late wife?

we dont get much information about Mrs Hawkeye, only the fact that she "died a long time ago", said by teenaged Riza in front of her father's grave. i emphasize teenaged because it means that, somewhere in her early childhood was when her mother died, and it's unclear if she remembers her mother, or even knew her at all.

we know that Berthold has been researching flame alchemy for decades, possibly before Riza was born, possibly before he even got married. whether or not that was a happy marriage is up for debate, but it clearly it was....substantial enough to produce Riza. maybe with his wife present, Berthold wasnt so deep into his research. maybe for a short period of time, he was actually a loving husband and father.

but then his wife did die. all he had left was his daughter. instead of the logical thing and, ya know, being appreciative of the only family he had left, he buries himself in his work as a result of his grief. distancing from his very young daughter, neglecting her in the process. why would he do this? because she reminds him too much of his wife.

Riza probably gets her blonde hair from him, sure, but her Big Beautiful Brown Eyes had to come from somewhere else, that being her mom. maybe even some parts her personality, outside of her reclusiveness, are just like her mom, like her sense of humor. he didnt cherish the fact that some parts of his wife were left behind in their daughter. the memories were too painful.

this would be even more emphasized if Mrs Hawkeye died tragically, like in an accident that could've been prevented, or even in childbirth (honestly Riza being "responsible" for her mother's passing would make this even more messed up.....Berthold blaming her for losing his wife, Riza never getting to meet her mother at all....)

anyways those are brain thoughts i've been circulating that i dont know what to do with. save yourselves, i'm too far gone in the pre-canon royai rabbit hole.

[parowanormal]

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