𝐂𝐋𝐎𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑: @vivianroan
𝑻𝑾: dissociation, mental meltdown
𝐋𝐨𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧: the royal gardens 🪽
𝐃𝐚𝐭𝐞 & 𝐓𝐢𝐦𝐞: February 14, 1276; lauds ( 5AM )
【 𝐟𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐢𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐲 】
She – she was protecting a younger woman whose name she called out.
“Zhou…! The Lady Jiao Bi. Now...! NOW – GO.”
A masculine voice.
Then came the grins. Red, blue. Stretched porcelain penetrated her thoughts. A rift where a mouth should be.
The old woman beside her — ragged. Breath – ! Harsh.
G R A T I N G
A child was crying. Howling.
P I E R C I N G
Her magnificent footwork – had she lost the steps to walk?
She stared at the floor — there was nothing there.
To run?
She stared at the floor — there was nothing there.
Would Zhou walk for her?
She stared at the floor — there was nothing there.
Would father carry her?
She stared at the floor — there was nothing there.
She neither had to run nor walk. She had wished for Zhou and her father, and they were there.
【 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲 】
‘Where is the metal among the ashes? What do the contrasts in red and blue symbolize? They will return, won't they? And they shall bring their Queen?’
Questions.
Entombed before mayhem could exhume them, enshrined within the recesses of her mind.
Even then —
She sat beneath the domed roofs of the alcove, the chill of marble walls infused into her spine, and the tendrils of flowers and foliage veiled her in silent oath. Stone, verdant hues, absence.
Serenity never came.
And the structures before her — they loomed. They disregarded the laws of her mind. How she must count upon the simplicity of being… For her eyes to trace the rise and fall of rooftops, the sharp turns of windows, but the contours? Never-ending. Even the shadows seemed vast and the moonlight beyond reach. The archway, the spires – endless.
They contested adulation like a grotesque pantheon.
Then she must be an ant.
Thus, she did not think. She did not feel. Mustn’t. To deconstruct these thoughts would be to collapse beneath them.
And yet, in the abstraction, she was real. Lips fit for song, eyes to beheld meaning, and painted beauty as costume.
Then —
Something reflected light.
She stilled.
Beneath her seat was a mirror cushioned by the grass. Small, handheld. A thing belonging to someone. Real. Tangible. Provocation by presence and circumstance: a thing-in-itself subjected to her senses.
That – that was enough. She was needed. If left unattended, it could be stolen; if left ignored, it would mean she had abandoned something that required care.
She leaned forward, fingers hovering over its frame, her reflection warped in the glass. Still, she did not move to pick it up.
Not yet.
Since the masquerade, Lady Jiao Bi felt herself return.













