Dear Ryan...
As bad as I want to feel about hurting you, I can't say I really feel all that bad. I repeatedly told you i fucked up, but you couldn't look at me when I tried to explain that I felt it didn't matter that I kissed another man drunk and didn't want to tell you about it. He's my friend so that made everything weird, regardless of my crush. I can't use that softener because it doesn't feel right sleeping in it. I'm not going to expect to be friends or ask favors of you. How I feel right now is pure hatred and I don't want to feel this way while I try to sleep. I did love you really early on, but you seemed to show interest in merely online things, and Expected a lot of things out of me, and that started to make me stop in my tracks and not tell you that I loved you. You started getting on my nerves, and I know you didn't mean to, but if hanging with you when I was single was more enjoyable than actually dating you, I guess it's just better I never see you again. I'm not gonna be in Anime club, so that's one less club to worry about. Sorry I couldn't make you happy sexually or intellectually, some people just never were meant to cross paths with me, and you're one of them.